Saturday, December 25, 2004
ok the world is cruel to me . i juz can't seems to slim down. reality was even more cruel . not chio ple wun hiu u. last nite was a real bad 1 for me . i was sitting there dunno doing wad . heng got ple msg me. so i talk with them. if not it would seems very awkward. some1 told vincent that me n another ger likes him. wtf i only say he cute. how to like. ple so old already. how i wished i can quit the job tis very moment. now mabbe tok to him also paiseh le lor. stupid i dun feel like working anymore. it suxs totally. i was about to cry last nite. but it was a happy occasion. even though i felt left out. i didn't want to go back 1st. i didn't want to be extra. i didn't want to be fat. i didn't want to be ugly .
i am sad. i hate myself. yesterday another ger came. she didn't look pretty but her figure was good. and alot guys was interested in her. i dun understand why. looks are juz too important to ple .
.MERRY CHRISTMAS.
satan plz grant my wish, i wish to slim down, many thanks for it.
