Monday, March 07, 2005
well so.. these few days .. being downed..
sat took my pay $351 .. not bad though .. back to work .. wanna guess e reason why ? its cuz of him ... i wanted to stop also cuz of him ..
well he said when i stop working i could find him anytime .. but ... these few days i being rotting at home ... rotting n rotting .. making me feel worst n worst.. therefore i decided to work .. but only on tue- thur .. hoping tat he would still ask me out ... he told me he thrown away all my letters .. he wanna isolate from every1 ... he haven being attending sch for 1 week i guess .. something must have happened .. he say there r lots of backstabbers n evil pple ... he prefer to find back his primary sch mate .. he kept writing letters at home to them ..
aint wad he meant obvious to me ? ... i feel as though hes avioding me 2 .. all i get each day is to msg him goodnite .. n receive his goodnite b4 i go to sleep ..
sometimes i wonder do i really like him so much ? i dun feel so .. but i duno y he can make me so sad n happy ... he asked me b4 .. wad power do he have .. i duno .. i'm feeling numb now .. mabbe tats y i cun feel e sadness anymore ...
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sat went out with xe ..finally.. to say goodbye to blader .. hes leaving us for ns in a few days time ... haiz ... well met up with them .. all didn't change much .. but fred hairstyle become more n more styled ... so long didn't with them .. was quite happy at 1st ... but after yenn left i was sad ... i called n called him .. he didn't pick up .. i wanted to go n find him ... 6miss calls , 2 unreplyed msg .. well so at 11+ he called back he told me he was watching tv at home .. his phone in his bag so he didn't notice ... well so i cun find him i went back to find them ... wasn't so happy though ... took lots of photos.. but none of them came out well .. all too dark to be seen haha ...
