Monday, April 11, 2005
well.. din blog for april.. getting lazier .. dun feel like typing ...
i got to know a fren .. hes seem super special to me ... as though we met long time ago ... it was a very qing qie n shu xi de gan jue ....
went out with yen.. bought 2 cloth .. super happy ..
oh yah yen asked me to change my dreams... im not going to tp anymore ..
everything is shattered ...
i din do wad i wanted ..
well tml im going np .. with my uncle .. cun find ple / erm im lazy to find ple though ...
count my friends .. i have less than 10 i guess ... i cried 10secs ago .... when i realise i dun wanna go alone ....
where in e world has every1 gone to ...
im nv gonna be independent ...
i duno y i juz can't do things alone ...
im afraid of losing yen ... bao ... linda ... n tis fren ... Lex ...
went to pay fees today at ocbc bank .. saw 3 of my future sch+classmate ...
hoping to change to ece really ... i had no passion for anything ...
i juz wan a simple life ... play my game ... tok to my frends ...
im afraid ... orientation .. such stuff ... 1st day of school ... i wonder if i will ever open my mouth n tok to ple ... im shy ... introvert i guess .. zhibei-ness seems to overtake my life ... im afraid of being reject ... im afraid of knowing new friends ... im afraid of being luff at ... im afraid of sitting alone in school ... im afraid i wun know new friends .. im afraid of wearing same clothes to poly everytime ...
im fat. hard to buy clothes .. my mum knows tat .. so i dun own any fashionable clothes ... jeans skirt even harder ... normally they r too small for me ... or it be too expensive ...
at far east today ... saw 4 " fat " gers who seem lot bigger than me .. but they look all right with e fashionable clothes! they seemed confident in themself! i duno y im so zhibei with myself ... beginning to feel iratatied by myself ... when i see into e mirror ... i always haiz today wear till so kns again then go out abit no mood le .. go out with yen i also dun dare try clothes duno y .. then make till yen abit shy also ... hahaha well so i promised her to try on e cloth .. n i like it so much n i chose another 1 ... i duno wan to wear it yet anot .. feel like keeping for poly .. but still so long ... now somemore no clothes to wear le ...
y am i so afraid ... when yenn starting sch b4 me .. she told me ... tml orientation .. next week sch ... i feel as though i worry more than her ...
stomach bloated .. think menses coming again ... keep on farting at home .. like got lots of sai ... e normal systoms again .. wad a suay thing to have menses ... logg off 1st bah .. tired le ... going to sleep soon .. goodnite alll
