Friday, May 13, 2005
10days have past , i din blog ..
tis morning woke up super early ... 6.40 machiam back to secondary school days ...
din have mood at all .. last nite couldn't sleep ..
50% cuz of e movie house of wax ... everytime managed to sleep for mins ... i suddenly will awake ... heart beating very fast i knew e movie really scared me ... so many times i tried to watch horror or thriller .. some ple like it so much while i juz can't even take a peep for 5mins .. few secs and i will hide back in e jacket ... 2 movies i cover my face totally ... a waste of money perhaps but ... i think it would be diff if he had sat beside me .. he din sit beside me tis time .. n tis was e 1st time he din sit beside me ...
Another 50% i kept thinking about alot of things ... something tat i knew yesterday shocked me very much .. i cun believe it ... it make me think of lots of thing ... about frens ... all these stuff ....
well so i went np today... took 1.5hour to get there ... met leen a online fren with her 5 frenz haix ... i din talk to them much ... i din felt like toking being so xtra wif them ... i regretted going to e SO CALLED ORIENTATION when its juz a show of ccas . i din even bother to sign up wad cca . haven even start school cca wanna grab ple 1st . wtf is tat ...
i felt xtra with them .. so later when i canot tahan anymore i asked ninja aka illusion to pei me go busstop .. he juz nice working some projects at school ....
1.5hours back home too .. tis time was super giddy e weather was so hot ... n i felt like crying on e way home ... waited for 72 so bloody long ... all i hope was to get home asap .. i hate e feeling of being xtra .. lonely .. lost .. trapped in a bloody place which i dun even know n not even frens with me ....
well i called a fren up .. was supposed to meet him ... but in e end he cancelled it .. hes feeling sad too ... i din know how to console him or wad .. perhaps i think i now moodswing or wad .... seriously i giddy for 3hours le ... yesterday i felt i got fever or wad .. but they said no .. my mum still say its cool .. till now i still have e fever feeling ... i feel i passing alot of heat out to e surrounding ...
i suddenly dun like e feeling of going into a new studying enviroment ... i juz wanna stay in e world wif those i treasured ... had e fun of yesterday ... staying in a world when i dun simply need to worry about anything ... e worries i have r nothing serious ... but i juz kan bu kai .. keep thinking of it ....
burnt my pc graphic card ... now i burnt my tv ... im left with tis laptop , my hp n e house phone .. hate to be without e tv or telephone calls haix ... bye
