Friday, January 20, 2006
today is friday morning .. tml will be 1 week i broke up wif u .. since then i still have no chance to see u .. I REALLY LOVE U SO MUCH and i cant stand it le ...
ok few days ago i puked again ... the feeling was cruel ... reality is very cruel to me ... i hate myself y am i so useless ... i really need u so much ... whenever i 1st wake up i will start crying it .. it wasn't wad i wanted i cun control myself ...
i being wanting u to call me very much ... smsing u hoping u will call me .. but u always din ... i really can't stand it anymore i need to see u ... VERYVERY MUCH ... yest i waited under yr blk for 1hour+ so i decided to ask u come down .. but u wasnt at home ... so i sat at cck for 3hours+ not knowning wad to do ... i had nothing to do ... without u my life is fucked up ...
tml is a sat .. i guess i'll be staying at home ... HAIZ I LOVE U AND I NEED U SO MUCH..
