wentieee__cotieee

6th July 07

2007-07-05T22:48:00.000-07:00

Heh yr sweet words for mine in yr frenster has been removed, photos have been renamed to - end of chapter -

looks like its really ended

life not really been smooth, im so lifeless perhaps should sleep all day long
hibernate during happy hours

July 4th 07

2007-07-04T00:53:00.000-07:00

He suddenly asked me out on Monday evening. was feeling kinda weird suddenly he asked me out.

but my conclusion is he wanted to see whether he still like me anot, i guess he probably likes another girl now. he even bought something for her, and he has 1 almost identical.

ok thats the 1st time i went home alone, normally he will send me home then take cab home or i cab home myself. kinda sad yeah ? the feeling, everything has changed.

but im not gonna moan and moan over this thing again, i will get over it soon. but worst is i will feel weird seeing both of them together. no point regretting anything, hes a good guy but we are not fated to be together.

1st July

2007-06-30T20:58:00.000-07:00

first day of july, cried terribly infront of a fren yest.
many and even myself can't understand y,
why ? we still love each other deeply but can't be together.

i hope u r slowly forgetting me alr.
as for me, this time things wasn't the same for me.
i could jolly well forget a guy within 2 weeks.
but i haven't get over u yet.

the reason we can't be together ?
i've no idea well mabbe i love u alot and i don't wan to always
scold u for the things u do wrong.
but sometimes u really say n do things without thinking
and ending up me always scolding u.
and i always feel bad after scolding u, i didn't mean to scold u
just tat i hope u can learn and grow up more.

u've told me u've changed, but i doubt it.

WELL no smoking in clubs anymore, its been a damn long time since i go club
school is starting tml, gambate to myself

June 13 2007

2007-06-13T04:37:00.000-07:00

Dear Blog,

I have alot of things to tell u =)

Its all about u

Do you know 9 more days, i can't see u every monday - fridy already. i duno why but its been affecting my mood lately.

Today i told you that someone is interested in me, and u told me that it will affect your work. the reason is cause im leaving and i wish u to take more notice in me, everytime u look dao towards me and u dun wish to tell me anything.

I just found out that that guy has a gf and probably intend just for a fling. neither am i interested in him.

These few mths/days many things happen, and of course i realise that you are the guy whom treat me the best. i nv say i wun give u a chance, but many things have happened, and i scared im no longer clean. and even if we are together, things will not be the same anymore, everything will be u giving in to me, and i dun wish to have such a relationship and im scared im dirty.

I stayed back in office today, soon we will not be able to see each other.. veryvery soon, and i wonder when can i see u again if i leave here. today went lunch with u, if you see this u should know why. it was a fun lunch just like what we had in the past.

Continue at home, i kept crying.

oct31

2006-10-31T23:24:00.000-08:00

long time no blog ...
here comes another cute pic ...

Maths Paper 1
6/11 - 8am

science chemistry
7/11 - 8am

English Paper1
8/11 - 8am

English Paper 2
8/11 - 10.15

Science Physics
8/11 - 2pm

Maths Paper 2
10/11 - 2:30pm

Science Multiple Choice
20/11 - 8am

My O lvls timing ... soon to be over
must meet up wif my dear frens alr ..
almsot everyday stayed at home
99% mapling n 1% studying
hoho lol s ..
recently poor anne must be sad over
not being able to play her game lols ..

n my mum keep rushing me to find a job ..
making me so angry ...
she keep buy newpaper n cut out advertisement for job ..
its not i dun1 ... i wan look for office job cuz sat n sun no need work ...
but i got nothing to wear for office ... so angry ...
then i dun1 work those sales line cuz sat n sun need to work
extra hard de nor ... so sad ...

3days nv meet dear le .. duno he miss me anot ...
ofcuz i do miss him =( ....

oct13

2006-10-13T00:56:00.000-07:00

ok dear complained i only put my own pic nv put his
so here it is !

he was wearing a gay sun quan suit !
while dear bought for me a zhugeliang wand !
me going lvl90 le ! woots tml cfm 90 liaos hehe ....

we kissing ! i got e urge to change my char looks but scared
keep waste money ! howow!!
my head very big rite ... looks weird wanna change hair!

bugis! saw the bastard don! he owe $$ keep dun1 pay.
yen bought a coconut which i was adictd to eating it ...

a famaliar pic i think alot see b4 ... hehe

more pics to go while i take n bluetooth them now !
wanna show dear and anne de ...

a white study room + comp table for $98 ONLY!!
but e cabinet cost $45 and e chair $35 ... zz tis 2 add up
almost e table money ! tats y i think its so afforadable!!
to be place in my room to remove tat old table of mine ..
which my kor dump to me when he bought new table ...

a white long table again to be place in the hall ...
i thinking which 1 to buy .. tis 1 more exp cuz bigger ...
if buy e smaller 1 then my laptop will be shifted into my room ...
if buy big 1 then everyting will be almost e same ...
able to watch tv while playing game ! weee

my camera took it better than e magazine image hehe

O's lvl sci practial on 19oct
nextt thur ...
to: dear / anne / yen / linda
must remind me to go ...
OK! i know u all will wish me goodluck in olvls de ...
i so scared cuz 2 years nv touch appartus alr ...
hope dun flood n bomb e sci lab ...

a maid a potato
lOL
one pri and 1 secondary sch pic ...

the potato pic in dear wallet ..
he wans e pri 1 ...
but i refuse cuz e potato me is like kinda cute ...
rarely got short hair pic k dear ...

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u r a girl and u behave like a horny 1 ...
i being wondering u get close to guys to get
a free sex from them iszit ...
and when i 1st saw u , my fren tell me U SO PRETTY
all these i was like gosh wad a exact opposite of her
being described ... cuz u know y ... u wore a very tight
shirt n i could see yr bra popping out which is
so obvious u wore a super bigger bra size
tat u should wear ... the bra n yr neh got a big gap
which gave me a very clear idea of e person
u r alr ... goodluck to yr future horny days ..
- to a girl rich girl behaving cheaply

oct4

2006-10-04T07:30:00.000-07:00

this not me ... its my primary sch mate ... grabbed from frenster
looked like me hor ...

tis my maple char cute rite !

anne says she look like shes being fucked -.- Zz!

ok i bought tis adidas shirt in black ...
tried 38 was soo tight bougth 40 kinda fat ..
ok i loved e shirt ...
and love the 2 new bag i bought ...
1 from mama 1 from haohao ...
love them lots ...
and of cuz annie ...

can see clearly ? kinda funny and cute ...

oh btw my appeal for np failed ...
hehe ... should i be happy or sad ?
i aint sure myself ...
whats my future !?

but now to me olvls is coming !!
must study hard and re do everything again ...

- loving dear lots ...
sorry today i wanna go tat place to hit ..
i not flirt k dear ...
have u alr enuff le ..
muackies

sept18

2006-09-17T19:18:00.000-07:00

sat nite haohao coming back to sg ....

i went out wif gary and damian ...
cuz linda at uncle house ... yen work ... anne at chalet ..

i was bored alone at home ... went out them ....
met at cityhall ... then went bugis ....
wanted to eat mac .. but too many ple ....
in e end walk to ghoby gaut opposite there ...
ate wanton mee .... all ordered a xtra serving of wanton ....
e fried wanton there is so special and nice ....

then walked to e new cathay ....
din watch movie though nv being to there b4 ...
walk past new urban male ... nv see e bag tat i like alr ...

took an escalator up ... ate ben & jerry ice cream ...
1st time eat .... okok only but so sweet ...
ordered e flower bowl , chocolate chip and added m&m ...
ate e side of e waffle ... then spread e ice cream on it n eat ...

after tat 8+ we all went home ... gary took a mrt opposite our direction ...
damian take e same mrt as me ... he was telling me about all e poly stuff ....
he graduate from nyp infocomm ( multi media design ) i think ...
i aso wanted infocomm but got so many types .. duno which to choose ...
he said his is a combination of e common types ...
but 1st year engineering .... sscared i can't pass ....

then after tat changed mrt at tannah merah ....
a long ride to changi airport ... still had lots of time ...
so went to buy coffee bean ... mocha ice blended ....

after 1hour+ finally saw dear ..... he bought a ultimate huge
roll of chocolate .... which look very nice but abit scary ....
e box longer than my hand ... eat le like will grow 5 kg ....
dear was wearing e pants n shirt i bought wif him ...
nice of cuz but only e shirt bit le abit ....

later dear said my fingers n hair smelt of popcorn ...
and he insisted i went to watch movie wif them ...
but i really nv did ... it smelt of my chicken biscuit
but added some icecream .... it was really e biscuit
i add .... dear din trust me and deleted his msn nick ....

e next day i brought e biscuit to dear .....
he said it wasn't e smell ... i alr knew tis would happen ...
he dun believe me at all ....

ok finally he believed .... we had fun .....
but at nite ..... dear suddenly had a change of attitude
towards me again ... now he's cold towards me again ...

i was only bored at home ... meet some frens whom i nv
see for almost a year + ... wadever i do now ...
he still gives me a cold shoulder ...

wad should i do now ? im so sad dear plz forgive me ...
but it doesn't mean tat i admit i go watch movie ...
i really nv go watch ... its up to u to trust me anot ...

sept05

2006-09-05T03:41:00.000-07:00

wen : Have u ever have e feeling tat tis guy : u r very sure tat
u'll be spending e rest of yr life with him ?

wen's heart : yea i do n im very sure he is e guy .

wen : then y r u always shouting at him ?

wen's heart : sometimes i dun mean to shout but juz tat
i lose my temper easily . small things like if he ask 2nd
time i would lose my patience n shout at him ..

wen : so when r u gonna cherish him ?

wen's heart : 1 day if he no longer loves me ...

wen : y do u always quarrel wif him ?

wen's heart : its becuz of e lack of trust he have in me ...

wen : y do he love u so much ?

wen's heart : i duno but he definetely treats me so well
more than a princess ..

right now hes ignoring me le ... well must be something i do wrong again
not sure whether we will be together at e end ...
but my head n hands hurts now ... heart hurts more though ...

whenever i say i feel like jumping down my flat n end everything ..
i juz dun have e guts ... i know u will be very sad if i do so ...

i tried cutting my hand but i juz dun have e guts to do tat ...

* wishing u were at my door step rite now *
*sobs*

Aug27

2006-08-27T07:55:00.000-07:00

exams r over ... confident rate of passing : 10%
rate of passing o lvl of cuz 50% ...
i do wanna pass ...

haos tml goin to sentosa ... so jealous ...
hao was cute yest ... he said there was a rest
called tbc .. then his collegues told him it was
" To Be Confirm " ... made a big joke ...

life seems normal .. no up n downs ...
told dear " do u know how long u nv bring me to shopping"
he said " 1month+ "

well looks so true ...
im growing fatter n all e cloths in my cupboard
dun fit me at all ..

as i m gettin biger .. im so worried ..
im afraid of seeing my parents grow old ...
i dun wish them to leave me at all ..
they brought me to tis wonderful world ...

i realised my brain had only fully developed
after being 17 ... i realised i used to be so
brainless and stupid .. i find studying
more easier now ... so much more ...
but yet im still so lazy to do n do it ...

2 days ago ... i finally took down my necklace ...
e " pig " which i call but yen said its a angel ..
hehe its almost a year old when its string got rusted ..
cuz i dun take it out when i bathe or sleep ..
only when i wanna wear other de then take out ..
but i rarely do tat ...

i have so much so much things i wanna say out ..
but i juz can't .. only deardear hao could console me
about them ... 6mths wif hao ... it really made
a big difference in my life ...

my brain start functionin n alot of things changed ...

Aug16

2006-08-15T22:43:00.000-07:00

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ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 2
P1AA
18 AUG 2006
FRIDAY
09:00 AM - 11:00 AM
Blk 56 02-08
Seat No.2

2 ) 006898
ENGINEERING MECHANICS
T1P4
23 AUG 2006
WEDNESDAY
02:00 PM - 04:00 PM
Convention Centre Level 2
Seat No.468

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ANALOGUE ELECTRONICS
T1AA
25 AUG 2006
FRIDAY
09:00 AM - 11:00 AM
Blk 72 Level 2
Seat No. 573

ok these r my exam dates .. better keep a
set here in case i forget again ..

Wondering where every1 is doing ...
im here behaving like a lifeless person ..
woke up ... eat maggi mee with egg ( as usual )
waiting for maple to be ready ...
It kept delaying .. Hours by Hours ...
Making my face sadder n sadder ..
Ok im hooked onto it already ...
even when im in sch or exams ..
My mind is blank of exams only maple ..
I knew im going to fail ...
Taking cab Rushing home after meeting hao ..
Really having a lifeless month ...
Will it changed after my exams ?
I doubt so im going to face O lvls again ...
I feel so worried but couldn't do anything
to help myself im juz too lazy ...
feeling hopeless

Played kongkong was laggy n gave up ...
tv on from 10am - 11pm ...
ok i spoilt it once ...
Cuz on too many hours le ba ...

Aug14

2006-08-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

Sat had a haircut .. it was terrible ...
MY HAIR IS SO SHORT.
she asked me wanna cut short anot ..
I SAID NO..
BUT I SAW HER
TRIMMING ROUND N ROUNDS ...
AND NOW ITS NOT EVEN EVEN ...
IM SO ANGRY ARGH ....
e lady i like wasn't around
CUZ ME IN TIS STATE

Sun went to Jerome house had bbq ..
glad tat trina came too ...
being a long time since i last saw her ..
dom jerome jim as usual do all e suanings
tat make me feel happy n not so out of place
esp after trina came ...

how i wish i was still in e class ..
following together till graduate ...
live would be easier now ...
will have classmates helping me ..
instead of being so pathetic now ...
e class looks so united .. n im so admore them

Aug8

2006-08-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

ok tis is anne wif a pigtails ..
or wad bian zi ...
she ask me send her tis photo but i forgotted
so dun care until she ask me for it =x

Tis is puppy's mum .. today went to take
photos of her ...
Dun they look alike ?
Cuz she is his mum !

I tried all means n ways to make her look at me..
I used e food to distract her so she would
look here ahhah .. but she started to make kelian
noise when she know i disturbing her only ...

Cuz no matter how hard i try ...
when i move my camera near her ..
She moved her face ..
=(

As can see .. her infront left size n e back left size
is injured ... she was bang by car when shes
young but never giving up on life ...
She born 6 puppiess ... 4 n 2 on diff time ...
The 4 was of nice species ...

She went out for a day and stayed in her neighhbour house ..
then e owner wash bathed n cut her hair neatly ..
soon she had puppies of her dog ...
haha but e owner din know cuz they moved house ..
All e puppies was booked by e owner's fren ...
Then the other 2 puppies was from a straydog ..
but e straydog was quite nice aso ..
he kept visit her when her puppies r born ...
but only could stand outside e gate ...

Aug7

2006-08-07T06:47:00.000-07:00

Tis is puppy ... he looks big tats y aint a puppy anymore
but he is name puppy

He died on 3 Aug 2006
wasn't sure when he is born ...
but quite a few years already ...

He used to be a very fierce dog ...
barking at any1 he sees ...
but of cuz i finally managed to tame it ...
it wages its tail ..
jumping happily onto me whenever he sees me ..

Cuz of e bones me and Hao always ate Kfc..
i washed n fed him ...
His like one of e 1st closest dog i ever with ...

He died . He was bang by a car ...
He was staying in office in e morning to eat n sleep ...
At nite he would be let loose to roam around ..
He had a best fren few days b4 he was gone ..
Tats his mum beside him ...
i watched them grow since they were small ...
He sometimes needed to be chained ..
as most of e time he goes barking crazying at ple ...
scarying them ..
but recently he was not longer chained ..
cuz he would listen to me alredy ...

Tats his beatiful fur ... i love to play wif him ...
Sayang his body ..
Tickling him ...
Watch him eat ...
It toook many days to be his fren ...

When i heard e news he died ...
i was very depressed ...
He saved his last breath till e next morning ..
To slowly walk home wif a broken leg ..
Taking a last look at his owner ...
His home ...
Dieing in his own bed...
The cupboard n e table was his home ...
He loved it alot ...

His mum being behaving weirdly these few days ..
and we r so worried ...
they have nv being seperated since puppy was bornt ..
puppy was the most wonderful pet i ever have ...
Hes only around 30+ ...
And he will nv be forgotten ...
I really miss him alot ...

july 27

2006-07-26T19:04:00.000-07:00

dear annoymous
put yr name n let me see who u r ?
i would thx u very much for e comment ...
i nv seen such a fat ahlian like me b4 ...
mabbe got 1 is those who like to dance at clubs ..
or those para para dancers ?
but i dun mar ...

duno y recently got a lot of chinese names msn add me ..
they have e same chinese names but different email add ..
and when i ask them who i am they say
" hi nice to meet u "
" yr fren recommend me to u "
" i will be back later "
they always type in chinese ..
and i dun think they ever be back
and i delete n block them
iszit a virus or a prank ?

18July

2006-07-18T03:41:00.000-07:00

こんちわ。
わたしは　シェンウェイウェンです。
どうぞ　よるしく。
しゅみは　かいもの　と　ゲームです。
シンガポールです。
うちは　Hougang です。
かれ　と　ジアハオです。
ともだち　と　スエンー　イェンィンー　メイィンー。

July 17

2006-07-17T08:24:00.000-07:00

On July 17 , w3nny realise she lost touch to e outside songs n blogs ...
even though anne changed her blog i aso duno lols ...

behind was e past entries ...
my life travelled 1/2 a year ...
everything changed ...
it was obviously for the better ...
though im repeating 1/2 a semester in ngeeann ..
and most of e time u all will find me walking alone out and in schools ...
but its allrite ... cuz i got a wonderful bf which i will definetely not feel lonely ...
however hes quite busy these few days ...
few more days we r reaching 5mths ..
aint it fast ... time past really so fast ...
e curse is finally gonna be broken ...
we nearly could not brave through it ...
but we did it ... and will last it on and on ...
and i got e most wonderful frens ... wif e funniest shopping dates we have ...
though not really everytime buy things .. as u can see now e richest update
we have is
anne and linda ... no longer me ... =<

but its ok dear dear will buy for me de hehe
love every1 who cares about me ..
i can feel my existence esp for anne =)

Feb19

2006-02-19T12:59:00.000-08:00

a fresh week tml ~
start of my holidays !
but exams coming soon ^^

only 3 papers

duno whats wrong wif e tagboard .. lazy to care only zz

having fun ^^

sometimes in life .. u need to face some setbacks..
in order for u to notice..
there are still lots of ple caring for u ^^

HEHE i love my EXACTMATX mousepad ! it rocks man...
gaming gives me life n satisfaction =)

love my dearest yen and anne ...
love haohao !
love lao gary poh daffy fred !
love lester lincoln philbert henree jon ! ^^

20 jan 2006

2006-01-20T09:00:00.000-08:00

today is friday morning .. tml will be 1 week i broke up wif u .. since then i still have no chance to see u .. I REALLY LOVE U SO MUCH and i cant stand it le ...

ok few days ago i puked again ... the feeling was cruel ... reality is very cruel to me ... i hate myself y am i so useless ... i really need u so much ... whenever i 1st wake up i will start crying it .. it wasn't wad i wanted i cun control myself ...

i being wanting u to call me very much ... smsing u hoping u will call me .. but u always din ... i really can't stand it anymore i need to see u ... VERYVERY MUCH ... yest i waited under yr blk for 1hour+ so i decided to ask u come down .. but u wasnt at home ... so i sat at cck for 3hours+ not knowning wad to do ... i had nothing to do ... without u my life is fucked up ...

tml is a sat .. i guess i'll be staying at home ... HAIZ I LOVE U AND I NEED U SO MUCH..

16 Jan 2006

2006-01-16T19:08:00.000-08:00

Its the 3rd nite im spending without u ...

Last nite i went down yishun to find them, and tat fucker boonyong dua mi, waited for him 2hours+, joined lester and his frens which i duno them .. while waiting i was feeling damn dulan .. they finally came down for awhile ate and left .. z ... awhile later my mama called and kpkb at mi so i went off too ... on the bus i was feeling damn terrible and xinku .. after getting down i walked up the stairs .. and i vomit on e way ... 2 times i vomit the feeling was damn terrible .. e moment was like when u said im wasting yr time and u wanted to leave ... i smoked 18 sticks non stop last nite .. mabbe i vomit cuz i din eat dinner... a very kind n pretty girl was looking at mi for a distance i felt so shy but after i was about to leave e drain she past mi a pack of tissue ... really needed to thx her alot .. i think shes staying around my block only ... but soon i felt better ... so when i come home i could bathe and sleep again not worrying about thinking of u and unable to sleep ... burnt off $9+ in a nite ...heart pain ... but nvm i chose to torture myself ... to make myself numb ... hoping tat i will be able to keep the to diet of these 2 days .. a day a meal ^_^ ... taking tis chance to slim down too .. and of cuz it for u =) ..

tis morning when i woke up i sat on e bed for 5mins ... thinking and trying to make myself accept the fact .. but after i bathe and about to leave e house ... i started to cry again ... i din know why ... i cried on e way walking to the busstop ... now without u the smoke taste bitter and terrible ... it used to be sweet cooling and fun ... i held my hp all e way to school .. since i know u i din sleep in the bus anymore .. cuz u used to call mi and pei me talk till i reach school .. i thot alot in e bus ... i kept thinking of wad to sms u ... was worried u might find it irritating and spoil yr mood for the day again ... but i can't stand it anymore i needed to sms u urgently ... i said " i miss u so much hope can see u again and yr smile " , u called back i was so surprised, everytime my phone rang i always wished it was a private no. cuz i knew is u ! i was very shocked not knowing wad to do .. but eventually i pick up e phone and talked to u happily .. i din cry i din sad i was smiling .. i knew u wasn't intend to ignore mi ... i know u still love mi .. which i used to keep myself from being sad anymore ... u say i would still have e chance to meet u again cuz u needed to pass mi my charger back .. of cuz im damn happy .. hope can see u in tis sat or next week time .. now trying my best to slim down ^_^ ...

had a 3 hour break .. went town ... din go for quite some time le i guess .. since e last time we intended to go town which we missed it .. and quarrelled i dun feel like going town anymore .. trina bought alot of things but i had no mood to see anything at all .. i told her i only da ban for u now without u i dun see the need to be pretty when i go out .. perhaps i soon be a loner le .. trinas quitting sch ... and left a girl n mi in my class ... everyday might be going sch , home , cs sleep ... i could no longer meet u after sch .. or wait for u below yr block ...

well i suddenly realised im selfish .. i love u too much causing myself to give u little freedom .. and perhaps tat y u feel tat im irritating bah ... im hoping mabbe after 2-3 years time we still can be together again .. mabbe by the time i wun be so childish anymore ... and if possible to be yr future wife .. haha but i guess u be mad by my nagging ... nah im insane .. its not gonna be possible at all .. haha but i do hope tat u will come back to mi after some time ... but im not sure how long more i can wait ... im feeling terrible without u ... after e kingkong's movie incident i realise i can't watch a movie without u ... i felt lost in the cinema .. but i din have a chance to watch a movie or take a photo wif u b4 ... but nvm i have yr pic in my hp ... i wonder if u deleted my pic from yr wallpaper ... haha im damn afraid tat u would forget mi soon as time goes by ... veryvery afraid tis would happen ...

hmm but while on e way home i decided to ask yen to go town ! i wan to buy e clothes n the skirt n e shoes i saw today which i was lazy to go and see it ... i wanna stay pretty when i get the chance to see u ! and hope u might be able to find mi prettier ! newyears coming soon ... will be getting hongbao .. was intending to work and buy for u sennheiser pc150 n a razordiamond mouse de .. but i dun think u will accept it aso .. hmmm hope can see u in the shirt i bought for u .. hoping the size is right ... hope to see u again smile @ mi =)

(9.30pm)
calvin : im sorry i broke yr heart again ... plz dun wait for mi anymore ..

LOVING DON SO MUCH AT THIS VERY MIN. how i wish u could give mi a call now =( i listen to emo songs and i cried again ... we juz sang wo ai de ren on monday .. the last day we met up and at kbox at cck ... di yi chi and wo de cuo ...

i remembered the day after my exam .. i wore very lata and i went to yr house to meet u .. i had accidentally angered u by secretly smoking .. u starting was angry but in e end u forgave mi .. u have me alot of chances but i din cherish it ... BUT NOW theres no1 to stop mi from smoking anyore ... im regretting so much now ... i wanna be yr fav's girl ... we went to fetch yr neice ... tat was the 1st time u sheltered me under a umbrella ... yr fren even thot tat yr niece was our child ... i was so happy after hearing it ... and i ate dinner at yr house .. it was the very 1st time i ate there ... and the very last ... it was a very wonderful dinner .. nice soup although its abit plain ... it has being very long since i had a home cook dinner ... im veryvery happy to be wif u ... once .. im very happy enuff .. but i shall not be greedy .. i know u wun be wif mi toegther again ... but i hope in e future i would have e chance ... LOVE U SO MUCH . can't stop crying after seeing e tv show of love ... I MISS U .. where r u ....

15 jan 2006 (2)

2006-01-15T12:43:00.000-08:00

I REALLY CANOT LOSE U ... im feeling so terrible now ... i really can't lose u ... i know u still love mi ... tis is the 1st time i cry till so pathetic ... i really need u very much ...

tis is all my fault retribution has struck onto mi .. i dump my ex cuz of u .. i fell in love wif u unawareing ... now its my turn to be dump and learnt the lesson ..

I LOVE U.

15 jan 2006

2006-01-15T08:58:00.000-08:00

well last nite was Jan 14 saturday , which marks the last day of my r/s wif him, i duno y when i woke up tis morning i started crying non-stop , perhaps my heart knew i could never see u for days months or even forever. I had lead the most happiest days of my life on tis 1mth and 4 days ... although its short but its the most happiest days i had have ...

well u find mi irritating and u wun have started tis r/s if u knew i was like tis , like tis ? like wad ? was it really my fault ? we haven met up for 4 days and i thot we would meet up on a sat , sat is a day i would definetly wan to spend wif my bf , ok u say the word " i thot " kills mi , yes it really kills mi so much , all i thot i thot it din happened and ended up quarreling .. U R THE 1ST N ONLY GUY I LOVE SO MUCH. I MISS U SO MUCH NOW. all my fault was tat i bought a tshirt for mi and i was so anxious in meeting u to pass u the shirt, tats y i ended up seeming irritating to u ba ... the tshirt imprint was " I LOVE MY T-SHIRT" , i knew u would love yr tshirt very much cuz it was given by mi ... but i still had to thx u very much for willing to see mi the last time , so i could had a chance to give u the shirt, i wun wan it lying around in my house , i dun1 to cry whenever i sees it ... In my mind now all i have is still yr smiling face , but yest u gave me a fierce look and refusing to look into my eyes, tis time was the other way round , i kept looking at u.. knowing tat i would no longer have the chance again ... u asked mi not to cry infront of u , u used to told mi when i cry u would xin ruan , but u said u made yr mind tis time and would never change e decision i was really heartbroken tats y i cry till so pathetic .. aso hoping u would change yr decision .. thx for agreeing to give me my last hug b4 i promise to leave, its very comfortable hugging u and i would nv forget the feeling , after i left i had no where to go .. i sat below the mrt track on e field , hoping tat u would give mi my very last chance if i manage to see u , but 1hour+ later i left ... u knew i would not leave after i promise to leave de but i din got to see u too =( ... u said we would be happier as frens , but could we still meet up like b4 ? could i stand myself seeing u wif a future gf ? im sure i wun be able to take it ... i always had wanted to be yr wife , silly thot yeah ? but i do hope i really have the chance ... actually i din think of so much but all i wan was to be wif u as long as possible .. but tis is too short for me to accept the fact... after cutting n highlighting yr hair u really become shuai abit le .. but too bad i dun have the chance to look at it again ...

i must thx poh n weijian for accompanying mi the saddest moment in my life ... poh ask mi " wad makes mi like him so much ? " " i din knew but the 1st time i saw him i started to like him abit le .. seeing his face makes mi happy , seeing him smile makes me even more happier and im satisfied, i dun mind going to cck or waiting him for an hour juz to see him an hour ".. b4 i left i stood infront of lot1, i stare at it for quite sometimes becuz i know it would be my last time here , i could nv come and find e guy i like most here ... me and poh lied on a bench below a void deck and he pei me talk .. he took 1 stick and said i chou bao chou yes i did , 13 sticks in 2-3hours time , all i wanted to do was to numb myself make myself in a terrible headache so i could sleep the moment i reach home .. he pei mi talk for 2hour+ though hes very tired after booking out .. when i din know wad to do the next moment atfer leaving u , poh thot i was jumping down e track and saying bye to him when i was sitting down at the field below e track .. yup so when i reached home i had to change my msn nick and off my com and slept .. but my hp name is still wen <3 jie ... u might not even read all these shit im talking here but i do hope u can understand wad happened inbetween , and i seriously regret meetin timmothy, i myself caused tis r/s to be finished ..

i had always being waiting for yr bday tis year .. although its like 10 mths more but im very patient .. looking forward to the day when i can go clubbing wif u ... happily spend our days together ... and too bad for myself i dun have the chance again ... u asked mi to stop wasting my time making myself unhappy to make u happy .. but i really dun mind going down to cck to find u juz to meet u for a while .. u say girls wun like to do things like tis , but tis time for u im a bit special i dun mind doing anything for u .. im crazy in love wif u ... but u told mi to stop wasting yr time .. u dun love me anymore .. this was the worst sentence i ever heard from u .. ya im sticky, but those 1st few weeks when we r together we almost met up everyday at serangoon gardens .. 4 days was a terrible days to pass without contacting u .. all i could do is to sms u hoping u can call mi back ... telling u how sad i am without u .. ok u found it irritating im sorry ... u say 4 days aint long .. but its really long for mi .. we at least met up every 2 days, i cun get use to the days without u ... i din go out in e weekdays save 62$ hoping to spend wif u on sat .. but yest i actually spend almost all on cab n a cig .. cun eat at all had no mood to ...

The 1st time u met me , was on a sat if i remmeber correctly is 10dec 2005 , i cried a lot in e morning missed breakfast wif u , but still met u at ghoby gaut mrt .. i remmeber u say u walked back to find mi after alighting at the stop infront ... i was so happy to see u , yr very 1st smile of the day is kept and remembered in my mind 4ever ... we then went to hq , u promise to bring mi around later at nite , but in e end pdm wanted to play so we stayed there whole nite .. u was very good to mi .. turning around to kiss or hug mi everytime u had the time to ... causing elmo to say ask us stop ... it was abit early but u were very tired already so we took a mrt to yck and u pei-ed me there till it was very late we chatted there and it was e most happiest day of my life ... i took e last bus u took a cab home and ended the day ..
One of the day i would never forget is the day i met u below yr void deck , as usual u was very tired again .. 1 of yr eye lashes drop and u told mi to put it into yr hair and u made a wish , and i guessed the wish exactly every word , it was to be tian chang di jiu wif mi ... i made the wish 3 times during our r/s too ... after tim's incident u say u would forget it and nv bring it up again .. i thot that was the biggest challenge in our r/s and after tis problem everything will be solved and u be as good to mi again ... yup u did but i duno y how come tis week we would become like tis ... u worked and met yr frens at nite .. and i only had a chance to talk to u less than 1min in these 4 days .. and mabbe from today onwards not even a min of phone wif u ever again ... but nvm i still had a pic of u , i would still continue to look at it like i always do in class .. i still hug the pooh u caught for mi to sleep .. whenever i see it i will think of u and be happy .. thx for giving mi the happiest time i could ever have ..

but dun worry i wun do something silly to myself .. perhaps i will juz continue to wait for u ..

Dec23,2005

2005-12-23T15:56:00.000-08:00

i've change a bf .. i know im very bad and cruel to him .. but i juz got to say im so sorry .. nothing could help the situation now ...

its 2 weeks since im wif don ... today im feeling very miserable .. i duno y ...

kope e music from another blog .. suits my feeling now ..

l`/l l 5 3 l2 4 l3 l_ E

Nov17

2005-11-17T04:29:00.000-08:00

Todays nov17 which marks the 4th month of our relationship, however it seems to be a dreadful day.. tis is the 2nd time i quarrelled wif long ..

1st i woke up 1hour later than i should , so i arrived 1hour late for class ..but the teacher din know tat i was late for so long .. when i reached my fren ask me go hand up my homework .. so i did .. then when i was queueing up she suddenly ask " has any1 seen weiwen ? " then i say " teacher i here ! " so she gave me a 1 on my attendance instead of a 0 , haha actually late 30mins = absent , but i tyco .. then i go class 5mins i hand up work can go le ! cuz she say its good and i dun need to make any amendments ! so i went off wif them to eat ~

5days din see my long .. so i took a cab and find him ! i kept joking tat i din love him and i made him jealous , in e end we ended quarreling when i refuse to tell him something ... i knew tis time was my fault but i din wan to say sorry cuz i thot he would give in to mi again tis time .. he always gave in to mi and i took it for granted .. we ended up not talking and b4 i left i only gave him a sad face hoping everything would be all right .. but it din seem so ... everytime we quarrel i would feel damn miserable cuz its always my fault ...

on e way home , my mama called mi telling mi she would be late home tonite and ask mi to eat dinner myself but i din have e mood to go and buy dinner .. long's papa called to ask if we needed dinner but i din wan cuz i thot mama would be buying for mi .. now i wondering if i should skip diner or have instant noodle for dinner .. but my kor made a mess in e kitchen and im lazy to wash it for him if i need to use e pots .. HAIZ ....

hmm seems tat wcg has started but i din got a chance to go down and see cuz of studies ba .. tml got a 3hour practical again .. i hate it have to mill a piece of alumimum bar and im so scared of machines its so big and its a invidual work so sad ...

oct 16..

2005-10-16T16:22:00.000-07:00

tml is our 3mths together le ... time flies real fast .. went bugis wif anne bought some tshirts so happy, finally got tshirt wear to school or else keep dun1 wad to wear very sian .. feel like buying a few more .. but spend too much money le .. my pay $300 less than 1week spend off le =( .. tml i'll be taking my maths common test again and on fri it be e exam , i hope i still can be e same class as my classmates as the timetable i receive was different from them , its kinda sad =(

a pretty lighter

my xia0d0ng which i bring out almost everyday..

10sept

2005-09-09T21:00:00.000-07:00

had fun lastnite ~
though some1 was drunk and spolit some fun ~
din expect can play so long ~
got a girl so good in singing ,
i din dare to sing cuz i had an awful voice =(

e bear dar gave ~

e duck e bday boi same day as me 1 caught for me at xzone ~

e pic i miss

necklaces ~

w3ndy and gr4ce

w3ndy& calv1n^^ gr4ce & j4mes

the beatiful things we shared

my new hamster

winter fox sapphire ~ so small

funny 1

hamster having sex wor ~

Aug18

2005-08-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

the watch i draw for my cats project !

find it so cute. !
looks nicer in the presentation de..

damn pek chek of my group member.
WILLIAM YEE >
he damn kancheong and kp
damn tooted guy.

cut my nails le .. scared scratch u again..
both of us keep getting injured =(
my dar u rocks .
its 1 day and 1 mth le ..
spend almost all of my sad and happy moments with u
thx for being there for me ..
plz promise me to study hard k ~

Aug14

2005-08-14T17:09:00.000-07:00

yesterday cav was sicked ... then we din go out ..

look at him so xinku it really hurts me alot ...
very worried for him ...

i realised i really loved him alot..
cuz im afraid of losing him...

walked in and out changing the chilled towers
to help him lower his temperature...
look at his face so swollen ..
felt real heartbroken ...

-------------------------------------------------------

i think i going to sick soon .. throat abit pain...
juz now drink chestnut water le ..
but ate 2 packs of chocolates haha ...

july21

2005-07-20T19:52:00.000-07:00

thursday today !

gonna see him tml ~

so happy this 2 days ~

anne acommpanied me to bugis on tue after commontest bought lots of things thx to her patience !
she go in fitting room wif me lol.s

wed got anne yen linda wanqi hehe ~ went orchard !

the group photo-
i look very ugly lor =(

me in e spects i gian yen to buy lols
nose so fat !

my eyes too small !
does yen looks malay ? lols.

me n wanqi vaining while some1 pluck eyebrown for yen lols..

people say we do look alike lols.

1 eye big 1 eye small lols

heez yen camera going low batt le =(

looking forward to phs food n fun fair tis sat =)

july02

2005-07-01T23:38:00.000-07:00

http://www.i-believe-you.com/mainpage_one.htm

-check out tis story if u have an spare 30mins , depends how fast u read too ..
-its super touching and nice, started crying b4 the ending..
-but no ending, cuz need to buy so i juz took it for granted they are together..
-there aint any curse ..
-suddenly think of how hard it is to find love..

yest dota and own with 2noobs haha was expecting to lose ~ cuz only got me mon n his fren average players..
then went badminton .. my toe was pained for like 1week but din bother to check it out..
then my uncle pressed my toe and told me it was sprained.. the last thin toe ..
then he tui tui then ok le ..

well i starting to like my classmates alot .. i starting to talk to some of the guys in my class ~
have fun sitting dom's car out and having fun, i love his car so much..

got a feeling today will be staying at home cuz they going cb @ nite again , can't join them =(
SAD. WHY AM I SO SMALL.

team17th in np wcg. omg i bet there's no chance in playing got 18 teams but they need 16~ need to wait for teams to withdraw or start 32 teams ..
we tried 2 match . 0 : 16 LOL. omg
tio owned.
er bye go play match le
sian.
=(

june25

2005-06-26T00:38:00.000-07:00

hmmm watched initial D ~ wow so nice ~
i love jay's eyes ~ so mimi so cute ~

hmmm took a pic few days ago ~ wif my fren g3 phone

looks more like me though cuz its super clear and not act anymore hahah

sudden feel like taking lots of photos ~ missed out e steamboat for wanqi's ...

good news for me ~! im particapting NP wcg ~ WOOtS ~ tis would be my 1st ever compy and i can gain some experience ~! however its source so abit harder haiz ~ dota is 5.84c but no team for me to particapte hahaha ~ i think my class ple is particapting WOOTS ~

z fell down.. in e cinema so dark heng ah if not xiasuay ~ tat damn ming tap me and i juz fell ~ got a big skin tear on e leg ~ juz now i thot bleeding but i touch nv but got e needle pain ~ z

june21

2005-06-21T06:15:00.000-07:00

w3n is feeling sad at Tuesday June 21 9.20pm ...
what makes me so sad?

Me in class ~!

Me n Trina

Me and Bonzi @ Starbucks

hmm e photos dun look quite like me. obviously they look better than e real me...
i got a big head ~

took cab home again ~ getting lazier and headache-r le ~ haiz

(thx yen for telling me how to upload pics, so happy =X .... )

(-Juz a very cute pic of icemon's cousin-)

June20

2005-06-20T23:24:00.000-07:00

oops was supposed to shop wif mon n ken ~ in e end ray bonzi ming darksoul came as well ~ i wore e same clothes ~ how i wish tat i had a uniform for poly ...

din get present for tina and wanqi ~ so sry ~ i promise to get it soon ~

slack @ starbucks ~ then fan my cab buddy to take cab home ~ cuz lazy ~ then reach downstairs liao tired blur blur knocked onto e cab ~ a huge sound ! e 2 of them luffing ~! so xiasuay ~ till now still pain zz

hmm took some pics ~ ended another day ~ need to sleep soon * gOOdnites *

17june

2005-06-17T08:34:00.000-07:00

went to accompany mon juz now.. play dota wif my laptop .. kept stealing network .. i stopped him from reading here .. think he wun read =) then took cab down for badminton $10.50 ! i've being take 2 midnite cabs tis 2 days and 3rd day 1 so x also .. watched pck muscial show was supposed to watch wif mon but he din got the tickets .. so went to watch wif some other fren .. got a guy very cute =X oh we bought food and it din allow us to bring in seems stupid. .. played barefoot .. 1/2hours got 2 blister then stopped .. wearing socks @ home now .. so pain ..

dyed and change my hairstyle few days ago .. some said no diff ~ some nv notice ~

hmm e fren drove me to bukit panjang today ~ so happy ~ =)

13june

2005-06-13T22:29:00.000-07:00

i stood alone in e bus, leaning by e corner , fell asleep , about to drop my laptop when i quickly catch it, nearly fell down , e guy beside me was shocked. i pretended nothing happen and continue sleep while standing. LOL.

e boot of his car wasn't locked tightly on fri ~ as when he goes up e hill ~ e boot fly open .. my fren sitting behind din notice ~ but i felt abit hot .. heard lots of ple shouting whistling...
FELT PAISEH. ple looking into e car.. he suddenly stop e car.. i say wad happen . he say boot nv close .. i din even notice it even when i see behind ..

these few days heart pumping weirdly. iszit going to fail me?

June12

2005-06-12T12:15:00.000-07:00

Do girls crush on guy who comes by whom average looking and have a nice character?

or rather iszit me only.

Feeling troubled these days or rather having moodswings ...

School , eat , game , shit , eat , sleep , wakeup , school , eat, game, shit, eat, sleep.

Wad a life.

June04

2005-06-04T23:29:00.000-07:00

hM haven blog since sch started ~ cuz i see e blog got fucked up n i lazy to change ~ i wonder if e tagboard session can't be seen iszit ~ i could not see it ~ but i got put in ~

yesterday sat my classmate car .. he drove me to e mrt station omg so happy ~hes 29 year old working in e air force.... hmmm im waiting for some1 else whom promised to drive me when hes enuff age =)

its so tiring bringing e laptop around ~ it broke my 2 bags le ~ n i need to get a new 1 ~ hmmm todays sat .. i wonder if im going out =( ...

had fun this 1 mth + ... went to some1 house to stay overnite to play game but ended up talking ~ well had fun ~ din expect my mum allows .. but long time no shopping ~ tml gonna get my mum to buy n buy !

everymorning @ school on msn ~ always waiting for some1 to online to talk too ... dan went oversea ... my kor going overseas too .. some1's heart also overseas ~ hai tis few days getting abit boring again ~ tat day i saw kenglong in his boxers n he was so shy omg ..had fun wif them quarreling shouting ahahha~

13may

2005-05-13T16:57:00.000-07:00

10days have past , i din blog ..

tis morning woke up super early ... 6.40 machiam back to secondary school days ...
din have mood at all .. last nite couldn't sleep ..

50% cuz of e movie house of wax ... everytime managed to sleep for mins ... i suddenly will awake ... heart beating very fast i knew e movie really scared me ... so many times i tried to watch horror or thriller .. some ple like it so much while i juz can't even take a peep for 5mins .. few secs and i will hide back in e jacket ... 2 movies i cover my face totally ... a waste of money perhaps but ... i think it would be diff if he had sat beside me .. he din sit beside me tis time .. n tis was e 1st time he din sit beside me ...

Another 50% i kept thinking about alot of things ... something tat i knew yesterday shocked me very much .. i cun believe it ... it make me think of lots of thing ... about frens ... all these stuff ....

well so i went np today... took 1.5hour to get there ... met leen a online fren with her 5 frenz haix ... i din talk to them much ... i din felt like toking being so xtra wif them ... i regretted going to e SO CALLED ORIENTATION when its juz a show of ccas . i din even bother to sign up wad cca . haven even start school cca wanna grab ple 1st . wtf is tat ...

i felt xtra with them .. so later when i canot tahan anymore i asked ninja aka illusion to pei me go busstop .. he juz nice working some projects at school ....
1.5hours back home too .. tis time was super giddy e weather was so hot ... n i felt like crying on e way home ... waited for 72 so bloody long ... all i hope was to get home asap .. i hate e feeling of being xtra .. lonely .. lost .. trapped in a bloody place which i dun even know n not even frens with me ....

well i called a fren up .. was supposed to meet him ... but in e end he cancelled it .. hes feeling sad too ... i din know how to console him or wad .. perhaps i think i now moodswing or wad .... seriously i giddy for 3hours le ... yesterday i felt i got fever or wad .. but they said no .. my mum still say its cool .. till now i still have e fever feeling ... i feel i passing alot of heat out to e surrounding ...

i suddenly dun like e feeling of going into a new studying enviroment ... i juz wanna stay in e world wif those i treasured ... had e fun of yesterday ... staying in a world when i dun simply need to worry about anything ... e worries i have r nothing serious ... but i juz kan bu kai .. keep thinking of it ....

burnt my pc graphic card ... now i burnt my tv ... im left with tis laptop , my hp n e house phone .. hate to be without e tv or telephone calls haix ... bye

03may

2005-05-03T04:44:00.000-07:00

well.. was too tired to blog last nite .. went out whole day .. sizzler then pool then orchard ..

well din enjoy e pool .. e stick was so light ... n going pool without him seems so weird .. dun seems so fun anymore .. din luff or joke so much ... but keep missing ... no1 to guide me on e angles ...
haix. msged him today .. ask him back for e camera ... feel like seeing him .. so long nv see him le ... haix

well at e sizzler had real fun .. got salad bar buffet so many things to eat .. but 1 steak only la hahah ... eh i wan e photos lehhhhh~ some1 send me plz heheh ...

30 Apr

2005-05-01T02:14:00.000-07:00

OMG I RECEIVED MY APPEAL. IT WAS UNSUCCESSFUL.

i declare tat i have not even a single fren in MTE.

hmmm got to know 1 girl call leen .. i think is eileen from regent de .. seems quite nice .. we exchange phone no. hoping to meet for orientation .. mte like no charbo .. i din wan to go engineering de .. how i wish i did better ..

well today its a sat. i went out with yen .. finally ... i wasn't at home alone on sat ..
i finally bought e adidas jacket... last time got 1 very nice also but e material diff ... shoes ! E design i nv see b4 de .. + its socks ... shirtsss !
* finally settled 1/3 of my cravings ..
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( hmm decided to delete tis part if wad i wrote really displease some1 i duno.... hmmm weird i seem to give impression of being despo by playing games online .. was i wrong to touch games 4years ago ? mabbe i should have concentrated on studies .. mabbe now i could even be in e same course as yenn ... and i wun have to worry so much ... )
[hai i wondering la ... by saying me like tis .. u even judging me without knowing or seeing me ... i nv meant any harm by blogging out wad happen on a day ... ] oops dun wanna start a quareel or wad lar ... but yen is e best best ger i ever know ... cuz i wanna buy alot things , she din have time to look for wad she wan... must thanks yen alot ... she seems to be babysitting me this few years... i know yenn so much longer than u , so ur not in any position to judge her too ..dun really like to use e word judge it sounds as though we r in e court waiting to get our death sentense ... im proud to be yen's frend OK! .. shes chio n nice ... juz tat sometimes she will get abit lost on directions ... n keep forgetting e way !

tis few days weather so hot lor ... was very hungry today only ate a HOT salad .. yen ate a ' un seen able ' seafood pie hahaha .... oh we ate 3 tori q satay .. from 90cents onwards hahaha .. saw fox on offer .. but felt shy cuz i wearing 1 ..

MONDAY gonna celebrate linda's bday ! YEAH sakura ! eh dun kbox can i dun1 pay money to go in n hear screamings ... i prefer movie or pool ! alot ple i will shy 1 leh i duno liting nurul they all leh .. i so long nv see movie le ...

hmm today let me try asking ' him ' to go tml ... probably 1% of chance he will go .. guess he dun1 to see us bah ....

May1

2005-05-01T01:40:00.000-07:00

weird i felt scared when ple whom i dun even know entered , super no privacy can't even comment on myself de day .. wow so fucking scared i am , though i knew it was only a misunderstanding but -- seems tat -- dun wish to treat it as a misunderstanding, i nv eneter -- blog im not so free to read strangers blog .. i rather go play my games .... but my name appeared too big no choice got to see how a failure i haven being described by ple .... hai duno is who ownself read de lor .. nvm . i dun care i rather go out then to stay at home n blog .. i have my own life .. dun enter mine too .. i wun ever see -- boi again. dun worry . aint tat wad u worry ? =)
ok tis is e last time i gonna " COMMENT" on tis issue . i dun know -- n -- duno me . we wun meet on street dun worry =)

went tampines with my mama shopping .. weeehz bought 3bra 3 panty eyeliner n a skirt ~ so happy ... juz as we went to pay for my undernies .. my mum realise her bag was open! n her wallet gone .. omg some1 muz have seen her signing e credit card so my mum purse was pickpocketed ! i had to pay with my nets .. hengfully my wallet n hp still with me ....

she was so panic calling e bank to terminate e services... hai i actually wan to get some clothes de .. nvm i get it tmL!

my mum now so anxious n scared ... she keep thinking n say she canot sleep ! HAIX BUT im tired n im going to sleep ! goodnite all

oops forgot to add something
e BIGGEST JOKE OF E MONTH
my leg suffered from bites from evil mosquitos from my workplace
so i look for calamine lotion to apply ...
can't find
so i took a johnsons baby lotion to apply ...
i squeeze abit but it was so thick so i rubb it my 2 whole legs
i went out perspired .. my legs n shoes felt a bit sticky
i din suspect anything ..
till i went home ,
my mum ask me : girl when u buy tis johnsons baby bath 1 ..
i say wad bath is lotion lar
then i relate everything to her ! SO FUCKING FUNNY LOR HAHAHA
no wonder its so thick n nice smelling .. heng nv rain or else leg got bubble
PLE CFM LUF WHHAHAHA ..
oops i think abut it i keep luffing ~ HAHAHHA
goodnite gtg sleep. tml need to celebrate

30 Apr

2005-04-30T08:00:00.000-07:00

OMG I RECEIVED MY APPEAL. IT WAS UNSUCCESSFUL.

i declare tat i have not even a single fren in MTE.

well today its a sat. i went out with yen .. finally ... i wasn't at home alone on sat ..
THINGS I BOUGHT :
- converse shoe
-converse socks
-supersunday tshirt
-linda present
-adidas jacket

* finally settled 1/3 of my cravings ..

left yen with her bur ... waited for guowen n joe for near 1hour .. was quite dulan ... din wan to wait anymore ... guowen was on e way in e cab .. to crc .. i told him to go back raiders hahah ..ok i met e 2year+ later joe .. he was definetly very very yandao! saw his ger ... i think his ger was mad at him ... but i did wait 1.5hours for joe ... longer than her ! cuz inside no reception .. once go in ... connection suxs ... oh joe brought his dog in.. din notice till he told me tat the bag is e dog head ahaha .. so cute ....

im now installing e wc3 .. finally guowen return to me .. wow guowen n kenglong was so good with dota .... both so friendly ... joe left early ... guowen n them accompany me walk to yck .. guowen want to pungseh me .. but in e end i force him ! haha then his frens was willing ... opposite yck mrt they met their friends .. so left guowen accompany me .. haha he quite nice actually lar .. wait till e bus come.. but he keep pester me to lend him e laptop ...

next week joining them aso ... dun feel like trying* to ask ' him ' out again .. its tiring to wait for answer ... tis few days weather so hot lor ... was very hungry today only ate a HOT salad .. yen ate a ' un seen able ' seafood pie hahaha .... oh we ate 3 tori q satay .. from 90cents onwards hahaha .. saw fox on offer .. but felt shy cuz i wearing 1 .. hoping to go shopping for clothes tml ...

29apr

2005-04-29T18:23:00.000-07:00

yest worked e whole day .. was quite successful din make any mistake... afternoon no biz .. but at nite got 4 tables... shocked me ... had to take orders n explain e food to them .. well its e last day im working ontop .. sat closing le .. then im going jobless after 6may ...

wed was lester's bday ... intended to celebrate with them .. but they din call me ... i ate at akvavit with mingjing n wanqi .. i still owe wanqi $4.50 ...

cried a second ago ...

wed afternoon.. went to play time crisis with phelen ... twix tok to me a moment ago .. i told him i was afraid of losing my frends... everynite i would try my luck .. open e letterbox to see if i received my np appeal letter ... i aint got friends in mte . not a single one... i really wish to go ece ... oh twix told me lester nv broke up with his stead at all.. their relationships 5years le .. haha im so silly n easily bluffed ...

wed afternooon ... went into yishun funland to search for him ... i knew he was there .. my strong sense .. i scanned e crowd for very long ... finally saw him .. stood infront of him for like 2mins ... he nv look up .. tony told him ..he look up after some time ... he juz looked at me .. no words no nothing .. din ask me to join them neither did he ask me y am i in yishun ....

10+ while on e way home ... i msged him ... asking y he din look for me ... i waited for his msg since 8+ ... he din msg me at all .. if it was last time he would find me after his game .. he din call me to play with them for quite some time le ....
i din understand y im so sad over tis matter .. it seems to be a big blow to me tat he wun go sakura on monday ... i wish he would go ...

haix tml duno going out anot de.. yen nv reply me ...=( i wan to get lots of thing .. but i only got 30bucks with me hehe .. sian feeling giddy n moody now ... bye all ...

23apr

2005-04-23T00:34:00.000-07:00

oh gosh ... i missed him so much when i wrote e letter on tue ...

posted it to him .. he received it on thur ...

friday went out ... going to simlim ... b4 passing by his school .. i thot it wun be so qiao so see outside his school ... well actually got 159 but i din take .. i wan to go yck ... so in e end really so qiao met him .. saw him with 1 malay boi n 4 chiobus .. din feel like toking to him .. was quite shy ...

felt weird seeing him yest ... well was supposed to meet him today .. he told me he might cancel it .. mabbe .. so i thot 80% would be going ... so i woke up din wan to eat .. cuz thot later go out can eat le ..wait till 2+ .. no call no sms .. something was wrong .. he cun be still sleeping .. msged him ... he say not goign ... din know wad to reply .. but all i know was my stomach is very very hungry so i went to cook .. disappointed ...

i told fate i miss him .. so fate allowed us to meet .. but fate is always playing a fool on me ... now going to 4 .. im still waiting for his call ... hoping he still wanna go .. chances now are 0.1% ...

updating cs now .. 98% .. seems like 2%takes 1/2hour .. now very giddy ~ duno y ... juz now accidenatlly fell asleep .. now giddy ..

yest lex was wonderful ... he pei me go simlim ... bought mx310 .. $53 ... barracuda $43 ... sehniser $69 .. left $40 with me now =(

n i juz burnt my pc radeon 9600 .. still could cs few days ago .. but keep cocking up .. play abit too long will black out / auto restart ... juz now tis morning tried .. can't go in cs anymore ...
juz now ... couldn't even on my pc .. e windows graphic was abit spoilt .. so i could sense something wrong .. within a sec .. it hanged .. no choice i off it ...

haiz ... e things i bought i used less than 1hour then tio taiji le .. so suay ... oops saw him online .. din know wad to do now ... duno y both of my shoulders are aching now .. my hair is going to be messed up soon ... bathe few hours b4 .. dun bear to tie it .. i was hoping still can go out later ... 99% now .. haiz .. so long haven seen yen... so long haven buy my bag n clothes ...

17Apr

2005-04-16T18:32:00.000-07:00

yest stayed at home .. whole day ... being bored ... looking forwarded to start school soon .... haven receive the appeal result yet ! so anxious ... alot ple seem to receive le ... very scared they lost our paper or wad lor ! only a piece of photocopied cheap paper !

today gonna work .. will miss e nkf show again ! tis year nv watch .. my da yi ma came yesterday ! sian !!!! today wanted go out with my mum to buy clothes ! but i need to work .. and she needs to work too .., argh now so hungry ! but lazy to eat leh !need to wait till 3pm then can eat .. dumb working hours ! so long n long n long .. n 3 hour break ! waste time .. during tis 3 hour always stay in e shop also .. nothing to do ...

hmm should i re dye my hair or should i straighten it ? i duno which to choose ...

14 Apr

2005-04-14T12:59:00.000-07:00

well went np yest yest ... with my uncle ... everything went smoothly ... queue up at stations ... was abit blur about e forms .. forgotten to bring 2 ... saw many yandao on e queue line .. i mean not queueing up but helping us to direct us ...

i was so blur .. duno wad to do ... i asked a guy where to hand in cca form .. he paused for a moment n ask if i was PermanemtResident. .. i say ... i from singapore lar ... well then went to take my package ... alot girls there to approached me to join camps ... she said something tat hurt me ... " u got any frends in yr course ? " .. i said no.. she told me " therefore u must join camps to know more ple in and they might be yr future school or classmate " ... i thought for a sec nearly agree to join .. but i din feel like ... im juz hoping to join ece now .. knew 1 fren going ece too .. but not close ....

well then bought laptop .. acer of cuz .. i love acer design though ple say acer is not nice ... sending on end month .. i wish to get it asap .. can explore n install all my things n games .... but heard tat irc can't be used in school .. got strong firewall ... heard need a programme .. tis new friend promise to get it for me ! so happy .. although is know at irc hahahha ...

when ple ask me wad course i wonder to say mte or ece hahah ... hoping to receive e result of appeal later .. cuz zhili said shengrong recieve his appeal result le .. it failed ... so if receive later means they need time to change course for u tis type ma ... so i hope to receive another big package instead of a letter ~

welll tis morning started to think positively ... i will try to know new friends in poly !
its another start of another type of life for me .. n mostly i think i will not get used to it ...

finally past the skirt to linda n hsing yee .. aafter dragging for so long .. a load off my mind.. i was wondering mabbe holiday liao still haven give her haha ... then drag till sch end .. next year grad ! lols ...

Apr 11

2005-04-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

well.. din blog for april.. getting lazier .. dun feel like typing ...

i got to know a fren .. hes seem super special to me ... as though we met long time ago ... it was a very qing qie n shu xi de gan jue ....

went out with yen.. bought 2 cloth .. super happy ..

oh yah yen asked me to change my dreams... im not going to tp anymore ..
everything is shattered ...
i din do wad i wanted ..

well tml im going np .. with my uncle .. cun find ple / erm im lazy to find ple though ...
count my friends .. i have less than 10 i guess ... i cried 10secs ago .... when i realise i dun wanna go alone ....

where in e world has every1 gone to ...

im nv gonna be independent ...

i duno y i juz can't do things alone ...

im afraid of losing yen ... bao ... linda ... n tis fren ... Lex ...

went to pay fees today at ocbc bank .. saw 3 of my future sch+classmate ...
hoping to change to ece really ... i had no passion for anything ...
i juz wan a simple life ... play my game ... tok to my frends ...

im afraid ... orientation .. such stuff ... 1st day of school ... i wonder if i will ever open my mouth n tok to ple ... im shy ... introvert i guess .. zhibei-ness seems to overtake my life ... im afraid of being reject ... im afraid of knowing new friends ... im afraid of being luff at ... im afraid of sitting alone in school ... im afraid i wun know new friends .. im afraid of wearing same clothes to poly everytime ...

im fat. hard to buy clothes .. my mum knows tat .. so i dun own any fashionable clothes ... jeans skirt even harder ... normally they r too small for me ... or it be too expensive ...

at far east today ... saw 4 " fat " gers who seem lot bigger than me .. but they look all right with e fashionable clothes! they seemed confident in themself! i duno y im so zhibei with myself ... beginning to feel iratatied by myself ... when i see into e mirror ... i always haiz today wear till so kns again then go out abit no mood le .. go out with yen i also dun dare try clothes duno y .. then make till yen abit shy also ... hahaha well so i promised her to try on e cloth .. n i like it so much n i chose another 1 ... i duno wan to wear it yet anot .. feel like keeping for poly .. but still so long ... now somemore no clothes to wear le ...

y am i so afraid ... when yenn starting sch b4 me .. she told me ... tml orientation .. next week sch ... i feel as though i worry more than her ...

stomach bloated .. think menses coming again ... keep on farting at home .. like got lots of sai ... e normal systoms again .. wad a suay thing to have menses ... logg off 1st bah .. tired le ... going to sleep soon .. goodnite alll

28mar

2005-03-28T07:03:00.000-08:00

juz now went down fw ... whahha .. to take back keys from WQ. she took my wallet home for 2 days! cuz i ask her help me keep ~ hehehhe thx though

.... YESTERDAY WENT POOL! hehehe ~ cuz bw asked me wan go anot! then he taught me for 2hours... with tony.. ! heheh i know how to play le! so happy yesterday .... but when his ite fren called him to go out today while eating ... i sort of felt jealous ... but i'm no1 to stop his life! hahah ....

22MAR

2005-03-22T07:06:00.000-08:00

wow.. almost 10years since i blogged.. guess wad... 45more mins to baowei birthday! i hope to be e 1st to wish him happy bday so u all plz dun snatch with me haha...

these few days.. boring as usual ...
cs.. shopping .. working .. abit only hehe
starting meowing in matches yesterday .. irritated a guy haha ...

well.. yen n anne got a job.. quite happy for them.. wonder fun anot.. tat day the guy dun let me go with them .. zz in e end i walked home.. 1hour10mins... nearly forgotted tat i walked so long ...
toes were sore... all e while when i walking home.. i thot about myself... i feel being such a failure ... i swore to jianfei few mths ago ... mths past .. but look at myself now .. i'm no diff ... or mabbe i will remain this way ... i sometimes hate to get out of my house .. i hate to wear clothes ... i'm fat .. hard to buy clothes ..

oops forgot about the time.. was 1 the 1st to msg bw happybday haha.. he didn't reply lols.. goodnite i'm sleeping soon

hoping to appeal into my 3rd choice though i went into mine 1st.. np .. so fucking far .. heng got 156.. but duno wad bus to get from clementi mrt ...

12mar

2005-03-12T12:01:00.000-08:00

cried last nite.. my kor changed e com to e living room... i lived on e wireless router .. making me laggging terribly .. no more games ... d/c every 1/2hour ... how to play my game ... well i guess when i cry my mum heartache then she offer to buy e router ... all my kor's fault ...

but nvm i can easily watch tv outside .. but no telephone to use ... so sad. ... so long nv use telephone also ...

i really wish to find guowen ... find back my wc3 n ft ... he take so long le ... i really wanan play ... being very bored at home .... haiz ...

last night my mum told me something .. her colleuague de daughter become very very pretty le ... last time i see b4 her lor ... how to believe she can jian so much ... last time her looks really cmi lor ... oh anyway there she goes ... drop out of ite ... playplay ... last time she very guai de ... now alot guys jio-ing her ... then she brought 2 guys back home ... in e room ... i wonder how she become so slim de ... me so jealous ... now still so fat .. haiz ..

oh yah yesterday went to see xe de team1 members... danz n icemon so cute ~~ danz looks so much like daniel dermawan so cute blurblur de .. then he bring along a umbrella though i dun see any rain at all ahha .. damn cute lor him ... but a bit old =(

now at home so bored ARGH~ i can't cs .. dling songs ... so slow ... haiz ... sian

7mar

2005-03-07T23:35:00.000-08:00

well so.. these few days .. being downed..

sat took my pay $351 .. not bad though .. back to work .. wanna guess e reason why ? its cuz of him ... i wanted to stop also cuz of him ..

well he said when i stop working i could find him anytime .. but ... these few days i being rotting at home ... rotting n rotting .. making me feel worst n worst.. therefore i decided to work .. but only on tue- thur .. hoping tat he would still ask me out ... he told me he thrown away all my letters .. he wanna isolate from every1 ... he haven being attending sch for 1 week i guess .. something must have happened .. he say there r lots of backstabbers n evil pple ... he prefer to find back his primary sch mate .. he kept writing letters at home to them ..

aint wad he meant obvious to me ? ... i feel as though hes avioding me 2 .. all i get each day is to msg him goodnite .. n receive his goodnite b4 i go to sleep ..

sometimes i wonder do i really like him so much ? i dun feel so .. but i duno y he can make me so sad n happy ... he asked me b4 .. wad power do he have .. i duno .. i'm feeling numb now .. mabbe tats y i cun feel e sadness anymore ...

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sat went out with xe ..finally.. to say goodbye to blader .. hes leaving us for ns in a few days time ... haiz ... well met up with them .. all didn't change much .. but fred hairstyle become more n more styled ... so long didn't with them .. was quite happy at 1st ... but after yenn left i was sad ... i called n called him .. he didn't pick up .. i wanted to go n find him ... 6miss calls , 2 unreplyed msg .. well so at 11+ he called back he told me he was watching tv at home .. his phone in his bag so he didn't notice ... well so i cun find him i went back to find them ... wasn't so happy though ... took lots of photos.. but none of them came out well .. all too dark to be seen haha ...

23feb

2005-02-23T06:45:00.000-08:00

oops .. i decided to delete it ~ or rather edit it .. perhaps i'm really stupid .. mood changes easily .. haha cuz i'm happy yesterday n today!

18feb

2005-02-18T08:29:00.000-08:00

k ~ i confirmed something le .. which makes me disappointed today ~ i ask him if he do send every ger home.. yes he reply ... as long as he dun tao yan the ger can le ....

so sad..

after receiving the msg ... i straight away no mood work .. i dunno y its affecting me so much ... everything he says can brighten n dimmer my day ~ haiz ... kept sighing ... didn't know wad to talk to him ... he sound as though he wan to put down the phone ~ making me sad .........................................................................................................................................

14feb

2005-02-14T06:54:00.000-08:00

yupxx .. so its valetines today ~ christin ask me if i wanna work 6-10 ~ i of cuz didn't want haha ...

something upsets me tonite ... he didn't send me home .. though it was late ...
i finally understand something ~ he's nice to every1 ... sending ple home wasn't anything special to him .. saw his neoprints ... there's juz too much gers around him ~ tickling was usual to him ..
i wasn't any1 special to him .. no contact got contact no diff ... haiz ... shouldn't always depend on him so much ~ .... didn't really felt like sitting beside him .. so i was ok sitting with yen ... but linda suggested a change .. cuz she knew i want ... yeah i did wanted it ... but it didn't seem much diff sitting beside him n yen ... i wasn't happy during the movie ... talked to him last nite ... perhaps talking to gers is usual to him too ... didn't really got lots to talk .. all i felt was shy ~ ... so i guess i shouldn't develop tat little bit of feelings for him bah ... guess i would be silly tat way ~ really felt like buying a shoe for him ...but my mum say buying shoe = asking ple to leave .... felt really safe n secure with him ~

sian tml still need to work .. guess i be stopping at end feb ...

13feb

2005-02-12T08:04:00.000-08:00

hmmm few days nv blog .. no ple read also ~ nvm ~~~ life's as boring

a rotting smell from the kitchen since yesterday ~ mum n kor guess its the hamster ~ they trying to find it now ~~ sad ~~ cute hamster mabbe died.. missing for 4days ~ no news ... probably died ~

yesterday wash dishes n cultries for 1.5hours ... damn tired ... but at least mark offered to blow the fan towards me ~ though not much help but as least some1 hiu-ed me. ..
saw ky ~ so cute ~ small eyes ~ today last day see him ! he dun let us take his photo ~ =( no chance see anymore ..

looking forward towards monday ~ i snatch win zili for the off on monday haha ~ happy ~ no off = i will cry ~ haven buy present for baowei n yen n anne ~ oops .. keep no time ~~

lauban gave us angbao 10$ whahhaha ... so niao .. nicholas ask him to give 20$ de ... but nvm better than nothing ~ miraclly xavier gave us 6$ ~ quite hard on him ~ he still childless ~~ hes quite fierce today to the 2 guys in kitchen ~ they keep lazying around n talking ~~ alot things nv do ~~ xaiver ask me wash things again ~ had fun washing ~~ so fun ~~ have man ju gan after washing ~

du zi dong ~ juz now lausai ~ now pain again ~

8feb

2005-02-08T04:30:00.000-08:00

guess wad. its 4.19 now lols .. i'm still awake .. not tired at all dunno y ... hehe played match till now .. but ple starts to get tired .. slept .. afk .. no matches for the moment ...

little ple online now ..

oh tis morning lausai 4times .. must be the curry i ate ... xaiver gave me posehyi .. then ok le ...
damn now hungry ~ today only eat some fries , 1/2 of hokkien mee and 1/2 of fan choy ... thot today no appetite but now a bit hungry ..

msged baowei .. finally dare to do it .. he reply once .. but nv did again .. mabbe busy mabbe fell alseep .. ~ should i go back sch tml ? i dun feel like ... but yen ask me to ... go back sch le .. then for a while go home ? .... so lame .. dunno wan anot ... cuz if go back need to ...wear clothes which make me ... sian ... sometimes how i wish .. baowei had the same longing as me .. to see each other .. but i know he wun ~~ too bad for me i guess ~

tmd de as i type i abit tired le .. damn .. i still wanna play n wait for baowei's reply ...

6feb

2005-02-06T16:49:00.000-08:00

hehe today off finally clear finish my room ... keep sneezing n tearing... now face got alot dust stuck .. alot unsmooth surfaces le .. but very satisfied after cleaning it up .. rarely so tidy de ...

oh yah .. my hamster ran away .. disappeared now .. cuz my kor forgot to close e cage ... the hamster disappeared like baowei ~ hard to find ... hard to contact ...

thot tat my bloogger link tio virus again .. heng nv ..

yesterday went to dye my bottom hair red ... so like the dye smell .. the ger help me paint my baby hair red .. damn itchy ...

feb03

2005-02-03T07:18:00.000-08:00

oh got my pay yest.. went to bank in some ...
damn tired of working ...
sad...
though i have fun ...

i hope to spend vala with yen n baowei.. yen say she getting more ple ...
juz feel like having a peaceful day ..
days now r so peaceful ... toking to xavier ... mingjing ... rarely see other ple ...

dunno wad to say .. nothing much
boring life ..
wishes to see baowei .. buy him a present.. he's e best guy to me

feb01

2005-01-31T08:53:00.000-08:00

HEHE went out with yen n bao .. hehe so long nv see baowei.. hes still as cute and nice ...

though nv buy anything .. j8 was small haha .. i managed to ask yen to give me a ear stud haha ...

juz now suddenly wake up .. i forgot i was chatting halfway hahah ..

oh yah told a very lame neoprint.. my kor was lazy to scan .. mabbe other days
hehe till now still very happy.. cuz juz now some1 sent me home =)

oops i think i missed the pay day ... tis time pay cfm very little .. but nvm enuff for me to spend already .. goodnite gonna sleep..

29jan

2005-01-28T07:44:00.000-08:00

today had a shipping lunch .. quite rush .. i was qutie shocked to see every1 so busy ... $42 .. unlimited seafood ( herrings , salmon , smoked eel .. ) and freeflow of beef tendorloin ... with black pepper sauce... and almond tops with chocolates , warm akavic apple cake ... sounds great iszn't it .. was quite scared about it ... i thot alot ple coming .. but they juz inform e guests tis morning ... in the end .. only captain came .. hes damn scary .. didn't like him much ... i wish i faster go down .. but tat would mean that mingjing has to go up ...

oops i misses baowei alot .. hes e nicest person , the nicest friend , the nicest kor ... saw him online juz nice.. he saw my nick " misses baowei " then he talk to me ... finally saw him ... he cfm change alot le .. sad .. he used to tickle me .. scold me when i throw litter or disbehave ... haix juz now say wan meet me de .. but nv le .. haix .. happy for nothing ... no1 cared for me as much as him .. he said he would be there for me de .. but now things have changed .. he has grown up .. while i haven ...

these few days being boring .. life passes on ... damn sad ... heng got work .. or else i be rotting sadly as home ... now wad i hope is .. for the results to faster come out .. and i get into tp or ite =) online for quite long .. but no1 talk to me ... sad iszn't it ... baowei also nv reply my msg le ... haix think i go sleep or watch tv le ...

still as fat =(

26jan

2005-01-26T08:25:00.000-08:00

haix... nightmares ...
everynite ...
making me scared ...
work .... fun but brings me lots of stress ...
dunno wad to do on the right time ...
keep fucking up things ..
can't get things right ....

wanqi : yeap its true upstairs really learn alot of thing ..
but ... i juz can't keep up with the pace
i keep panicing ... nicholas was quite fierce today ... he didn't like me to keep asking questions ..
christine off 2 days ... damn sad for me ...
xavier so cute n funny ... wish he was much younger =P but ple already got wife ...
we kept talking today ...

hmmm meeting wanqi n mj for breakfast tml morning ... still got 1/2h to spare ... no time for games ... laters plz treat drinks =P
finally cutted my hair ... damn like it .. mabbe dyeing it blue after getting results ...
the zen mirco is bringing some happiness ... got nice songs plz send me =)

hehe tis morning see reynold again ... i told him i felt shy see-ing him .. dunno wad to talk haha ... hehe i know wad time he go work le ... i admire his skin .. so nice ... and his hair so style .. he abit man but very thin ... so look very ahbeng ... tight slingbag haha ... young ger let him cut hair the gers cfm shy haha ...

k gtg sleep le ..

jan24

2005-01-24T23:51:00.000-08:00

HEHE bought my ZeeeNIe MIrCooO~ for $410 hehe great deal .. nicholas fren ... he today take my hp dun1 return .. scare me ...

oh ya .. damn yen was late for 1.5hours .. as usual she's late should i say ? hmmm ...

hmmm something happened as expected... no comments for tat ..

OH YA on e way back from FUNAN! mEEt XAVIER! sibei chiao right ... he damn cute in his big bag and shirt .. talltall man man n cutecute ...

tml off .. no chance go out .. going to work for my mama place there .. $40 dollar from 8.30-5.30 not bad though .. juz earned $40 from the job i did on sunday ...

damn haven cut my hair yet .. zz .... no time ...

FUCK when i charing my ZEN MY KORKOR GO PLUCK OUT MY CHARGER . i wonder if its affected.. i scolded him .. but nothing much i can do .. hope it wun be affected ...

hmm next i think i wana buy a adidas shoe .. converse not nice de ..

today parisan talk to me quite alot haha .. felt weird when he started talking .. then i also talk together haha .. he say he wan go toilet. i ask y .... he was like luffing .. " ple wan go toilet , u also wan ask y " ... i luff back ahhaa ... he went very long .. think go pungsai ..

23jan

2005-01-23T12:51:00.000-08:00

wow tis morning went for my 1st job.. then on e way to fisherman saw a cute guy .. andrew lim + vincent hehe .. but of cuz cuter and abit taller than them ... keep peeping at him haha .. juz the next door ...

going to cut my hair tml .. trim abit ...

hmm 1st time tok on irc with ling hahah .. damn funny ... she started e talk on main lols ... juz now work with her .. quite funny ...

21jan

2005-01-21T06:10:00.000-08:00

hehez... backed at home... fisherman was damn busy but... akvavic no1 haha .. so me xavier christine n mark watch spy kids 2... damn funny tat movie ...

haix tue ... any1 wans to date me ? was supposed to go out and eat at akvavit ... but .... sian ...

working as usual .. bored n tired n abit sad.. at least during work i abit more happy .. if at home cfm very sian ... recently ... very quiet at nite ... school begun ... every1 busy with their own things again ... nothing much to write ... waiting for ple to talk to me ...

damn tml nite only me n serene .... we abit communication problem haha .. mabbe age gap ...

20jan

2005-01-19T08:04:00.000-08:00

DAMN~ guess wad i saw : VINCENT CHANGING CLOTHES
LOLS. DAMN SHY. didnot know how to react... faster turn away and eeee-ing him after tat haha ...

christine nv came today .. the 6 reservation also ... bluff me... make me anxious for nothing ... i toda stammered infront of customers ... =( cuz i damn scared .... following nicholas instructions ... YEAH I OPEN 11 bottles of carlsberg today .. of cuz successfully lar haha ...

tml finally get to play badminton haha YEAH!

guess wad my favourite job in akvavic

--- lighting candles at 7pm HAHA ---
others... i'm terribly afraid ....

keep blurring all the way through ... trying to bluff my days up there ... hoping tat the week go through successfully ...

me n wanqi was super boliao tis afternoon haha .. i break for 3 and a half hour .. pei zili le then wanqi turn haha .. we eat le go play xbox at funan hahah ... then our finger all very ' suan ' ... was late .. xavier face a bit black .. got say me abit lar ... but he still veryvery nice ...

today nicholas ask mingjing to be his xiao lao po ! lOls. he say he not those wolf or shepard like xavier n jason HAHA.. nicholas tis morning hit my arm damn hard .. haha say i very fit .. erxin lols.. keep buying food n making coffee for them ...

gave my mama $50 .. lols she in return gave me $10 to cut hair hahah .. dunno 10 enuff anot.. juz need to trim fringe abit.. long n thick le hehe .. tue looking forward to go akvavic to eat HEHE .

18jan

2005-01-18T06:29:00.000-08:00

whaha got my pay yesterday ! $567.. hard to believe ...
yesterday was a damn stress day for me ... upstairs... horrible lor ... i was very afraid.. didn't know the right thing to do.. sad ...

damn juz served 2 locals today hahah .. i was succesful in taking orders! and serving them till they left hahah .. successful n of cuz quite happy .. but tonite left at 8 haha ... tis 2 week de pay cfm lesser le .. but nvm can use com more..

gosh.. juz found a blog skin i like haha .. didn't really like e words.. but i found a full page 1 hahah ...

e cute boy came back to work .. poor thing lor his hand.... haix ...

wanqi say she gonna " curse " me in her diary tonite hahah ... but i reach home much earlier than her lols ...

16jan

2005-01-16T22:59:00.000-08:00

hmmm... new work enviroment
Monday : 11.30-3 ; 6-10
Tuesday : 11.30-3 ; 6-10
Wednesday : 11.30-3 ; 6-10
Thursday : 11.30-3
Friday : 11.30-3 ; 6-10
Saturday : 6-10
Sunday : OFF whahaha

gonna miss mingjing n the kitchen boy =(
damn scared about tml ...
i know i will make mistake...
wad if my memory fails me ...
and i drop food on vips ...

oh bought a new jeans n black t ...

i wonder when can take my pay ... finally 1 mth of slogging ... 1mth of repeated process .. 1 mth of repeated sadness ...

damn tis blogskin suxs.. the author make de so nice.. but when i make .. it turns ugly haha .. changing soon ... hard to find nice ones ... i wan those long long de ... dun like to keep scrolling ... i juz realise i dunno how to link my past archieves haha .. i was nv taugh tat =(

sometimes i wonder wad i wan ... wad am i looking forward to .. wad lifes means to me ...

15jan

2005-01-15T07:29:00.000-08:00

weird..wanted to change my blogskin but .. dunno why the web fucked up ..
oh 15jan .. 1 mth in fisherman wharf .. my very last day mabbe haha
actually i'm promoted to lvl2 lols ... got chance to see xavier almost everyday .. but .... cannot see the cute guy in lvl 1 kitchen le ahahha .. miss him .. wondering how is him .. hehe
these few days quite bored ... nv look into e kitchen haha .. no1 tok to me during break .. but oftenly go up find xavier haha..

oh tonite's earnings was $773 .. how i wished tat was my 2 weeks pay .. alot isn't it ... haha so today it total to 1032.50 ... got 5 yandaos came with their gfs.. and ling flirt with them LOLS. oops ..... shhhh ...

oh yah wanqi caught e ger at orchard chasing taufik LOLS. fake mc =) i cfm .. she told me taufik's parading in orchard schedule was written on papers .. so they went to chase him ...
... dun understand whats so good about idols ...

went to see zen mirco.. $449 .. $1 below my budget hahah .... damn nice ....

13jan

2005-01-13T07:26:00.000-08:00

backed at home.. quite sad tonite.. chrisitin ask me to work ontop on nextweek.. but i didn't want.. but nicholas saw me sulky face.. and he say " dun wan nvm 1 .. i dunwan to force ple .. face so chao for wad " .. make me sad..

oh yah saw reynold tis morning .. take same bus with him.. hes damn yandao .. he has the nicest skin and hairstyle i ever seen .. damn happy .. but when i go work .. jason vincent n nicholas seems to be in badmood.. no1 toking in kitchen .. but afternoon every1 was fine again ..

juz now ate jason cook de chickenfingers for free haha .. nice but.. alot breasty meat haha.. make my stomach feelll ... and obviously something happen in e afternoon haha .. i ordered sambal horfun with less chilli .. tmd .. eat few spoon cannot eat le.. damn hot .. weird , jason said it wasnot hot at all .. he added tobasco .. zz wanqi ordered extra chilli .. no1 seems to find it hot.. i drank 3 cups of water .. went toilet twice .. hot stomach haha ..

vincent's finger dislocate haha ... i still ask him if he need plaster LOLS. damn funny .. he seem not pain like tis haha .. 1st time hear finger will dislocate lols .. hmm msn up le.. juz now spoil i think .. boring night .. my speakers r turned off again.. duno how to on it back ...

11jan

2005-01-11T06:53:00.000-08:00

hmm finally went out yesterday...though nv watch movie but had a nice time shopping haha .. made me atm card with yen .. but i dun bear to use.. wait till my next pay then i use lor ..

last nite saw fred... sad.. i see him changed so much though these 2 months .. wad about me.. i wanted to jianfei ... i NV AT ALL.. i have done nothing to change myself in fact getting fatter n fatter .. cannot even ask myself to continue running ... msg fred he did'nt reply.. neither did he in irc.. sad.. mabbe i very ugly le.. he nv chap me .. my pimples r also coming out terribly ... mabbe of cuz sleeping late n working bah ..

bought a absolute vodka bag .. got to thanks yen n wanqi .. they discourage me buy heniken and pei me find slingbag strip haha ...

8jan

2005-01-08T06:20:00.000-08:00

hmmm seem to be blogging everyday these days haha .. now work not so busy le .. got shifts.. which means less money =(
some stupid horny mosquito bite me on my neh during worktime .. zz damn itchy .. keep scratching when no ple looking haha ..
today nothing much happened..as usual ... bored ... quite interested in vincent phone 6230 .. nice mp3 player ... or should i juz buy a nomad... dun bear to change my phone .. all my pictures inside ... somemore about 1 year nia ...
wondering wad will happen on monday... tried clothes tis morning ... looks ugly and abit out of fashion .. but no clothes to wear.. i sort of got a feeling monday will left me n yen only haha .. so long nv go out.. hope to buy a slingbaggggie... but dunno buy from where...

hmm vincent came today though he not working .. hes really so cute... so glad to have him as a friend ..

7jan

2005-01-07T00:30:00.000-08:00

haix... sch end so long le ... every1 busy working ... think chinese new year also need to work .. me zili n mingjing snatching for friday off ... damn funny haha ...
my cs...getting more n more lan le ..

friendships seem to be drifting ... haix .. very long nv take neoprint ... feel like taking it so much .. k lets take on monday .. ok .. actually is i think too much bah .. no1 tell me wad u r thinking ... i dunno wad u thinking also ... mabbe is cuz... zhibeiness getting all over me .. i fear about clothes ... i hate seeing myself in e mirror ... e fat n ugly me .. sometimes juz feel like crying .. all i hope is for u me n mingjing to get into tp ... e course we want all along ... i used to fear going to a poly without u ... i used to fear going sch without u ... u was like an angel protecting me .. but since sch ended ... i thot we would end up working happily together ... but we got cai-san again ... actually i only zham the off for sunday .. but in e end christine gave me a sunday and monday .. was quite shocked... or iszit fated to go out with u haha ... any nice movies? wanna watch ... yap n btw i ask linda join us after school ... haha so no need go out so early ..

hmm mama asking me to sleep early .. tml fullday again =) oh yah took 3 photos of him .. i dunno WHY when i see him .. i see a baowei in him .. like wad wanqi say haha " cuz very cute then want to talk to him " ! very true! i keep suan-ing him ... i wonder wad he gonna do ... if all of us leave tis place ...

5jannnnn

2005-01-05T07:45:00.000-08:00

hehe ... bought HOtcAkeS! for xavier ... i take mrt the smell so heavy alot ple stare at me .. so i kept in my bag .. felt paiseh along the way .. reached very early today hehe ... talk with xavier ontop ... aiya forgot funan got mac haha ... he say next time bring me go disco lols.. but he say i cannot enter .. mabbe karaoke... hahah now wad niandai le .. he still use such terms... he say he 10year+ nv eat hotcakes haha ... he very man sia ... like toking to him .. hes so nice .. i told him e hotcak so long le not nice.. he say ple buy de thing where can hiam ... got heart to buy can le ... hear le so happy ...

hmmm today some1 quite sad ... he look like hamster sia ... so cute ... he nowadays can leave at 8pm .. so good ... i told him not to fry his hand while frying fish haha .. juz now nail broke again .. haix .. oh yah lend him my nailcutter today haha .. his nail also always break lols ..

haix tat day tok to baowei in msn. .. he didnot reply for a while .. then i realise his nick soon changed to " leave me alone, sorry " ... obviously was meant for me to read ... so i msg him again ... haix he really didn't reply .. so i juz appear offline .. he didn't reply my sms too ... wonder wad every1 doing nowadays ...

hmm really wish to go same course as mingjing haha .. she damn funny .. shared some secrets with her .. she also agree haha ...

got my pay!

2005-01-04T11:01:00.000-08:00

hehe... today juz got my pay ... guess how much it was ? ! $636 !! mingjing was so happy about it and keep smiling at the cheque haha ... i decide not to spend it .... but will spend the 2nd pay on a mp3 and a handphone for my mama .. hmm bringing my mama out for movie on sunday ... i dunwan her to feel suaku and only working ... but i think my 2nd pay wun be so much le .. cuz now only 2 person at a time ... got shifts le ...

and something upsets me alot recently ... u've changed ... perhaps u think is for the better ... but i certainly feel its for the worst .... u weren't like tis in the past ..... haix ... nvm ....

i juz need time to change myself into a better person ...

xavier today very funny ... like him so much .. he so maN~ he today ask me call him papa haha .. then i say he give me $1000us a mth then i call ... lols he say i got salary le need to treat him eat ... so he wan mac hotcakes for tml breakfast hahah ...

hmmm school started ... less n lesser ple playing cs .... abit sad ... morning b4 work only some svs got ple ... and ..... my friends schooling le .. esp pak got jc hahah damn funny him ...

hmmmm recently dunno wad games to play ... cs seems boring ... maple and gunbound i quit le ... any nice games to intro ?

fuck the indians

2004-12-31T22:16:00.000-08:00

WTF my POST WASNOT PUBLISH LAST NITE.
ok let me curse the indians again.
THEY WERe SUPER IRRAITING
i dun understand why the north east line must reach little india and let the indians take mrt to orchard and flood the orchard road with blackies.
dun blame me for being racist, i DUN have ANY indian friends.
tHEY keep spraying and spraying. AND ONE OF THE FUCKING INDIAN use his finger and poke my cb there, but i dun even know is who. cuz keep kenna spray eyes and cannot see. then look like lion and hair sibei dry.

I SURE I WIll go SENTOSA THE NEXT TIME. INDIANS WUN pAY TO GET THERE. EVEN if there IS. they r singapore indians which are BETTER and civilised. the ahbengs were also cursing the ahNEHS. i REMEMBER the MILLENIUM countdown at ORCHARD. i DIDNOT SEE INDIANS. only MALAYS.

lastly happy new year. last nite me yen zili n vincent went orchard.... vincent look so much like baowei... juz tat he abit more yandao ... cuteness stays lar ... i miss baowei ... he promised to meet me after olvls.. but i nv heard from it... 1mth + le ... vincent and baowei ... the way their hair... the way they make their hair ... and their face ... their smile and teeth ... their size .... their height .... their cuteness .... all so alike .... mabbe is cuz why i feel like wanting to know him bah .... ok last nite after yen left... me n him go take mrt. WTF CLOSED. then we walk out ... he go take taxi ... then i quickly pungseh him and go ... cuz paiseh 2 person dun dare talk to him ... feel abit bad to pungseh him and he didnot seem happy last nite.... weird the post i post last nite didnot came out.

HAPPY NEW YEAR. plz make my new year happier. thx

hApPy nEW YeAR ~

2004-12-31T21:29:00.000-08:00

haixxx oh its a new year soon .... but i dun wish it happens so soon ... how i wish i was still in sec4.. but without o lvls.... my friends are like getting lesser and lesser already ..... mabbe haven seen some of them for even 1 mth ... after the grad nite ... as i think of it .... i think of myself... i said i wanted to slim down b4 new year.... so can buy nice clothes and go sentosa... but now... no sentosa ... no slim down ... its too hard .... i juz canot make it .... my dreams of going nice nice into poly is shattered.... i remain the same.. the fat n ugly me .... but i not going to give up yet .... perhaps i can tahan till today is becuz the dream i had ....

today new year still got to work ... dunno there got celebrate anot... if not.... go home ..... haix.... wad a lame year .... happen so much and go so much lor .... espically when i cs... time pass so fast .... i wonder if got celebrate i will enjoy anot sia ... but nvm think i can go home watch sentosa de countdown .... always no chance to go ... i wanted to go very much ....

sometimes i wonder how i know mingjing sia. ... we like friends very long le ... 1st time in workplace got such a good friend .... and i really wan to thx xavier .... hes such a nice guy ... he tok to me till i cry ... he's always so joky and nice .... i will 4ever remember him ... hes so MAN .... haha xavier : thx for calling me sha xiaomei .... u brought fun to my working experience ...

haixxxxxx

2004-12-25T21:40:00.000-08:00

ok the world is cruel to me . i juz can't seems to slim down. reality was even more cruel . not chio ple wun hiu u. last nite was a real bad 1 for me . i was sitting there dunno doing wad . heng got ple msg me. so i talk with them. if not it would seems very awkward. some1 told vincent that me n another ger likes him. wtf i only say he cute. how to like. ple so old already. how i wished i can quit the job tis very moment. now mabbe tok to him also paiseh le lor. stupid i dun feel like working anymore. it suxs totally. i was about to cry last nite. but it was a happy occasion. even though i felt left out. i didn't want to go back 1st. i didn't want to be extra. i didn't want to be fat. i didn't want to be ugly .

i am sad. i hate myself. yesterday another ger came. she didn't look pretty but her figure was good. and alot guys was interested in her. i dun understand why. looks are juz too important to ple .

.MERRY CHRISTMAS.

satan plz grant my wish, i wish to slim down, many thanks for it.

Ok....

2004-12-21T09:01:00.000-08:00

ok here i am again ... its tuesday today .... today is his offday and my turn to take orders.... abit scared .... hope time passes faster today .... whenever i see him i become very happy ....tok to him le finally ... cuz yest like no business ... then he tok to me also hehez .... hes damn cute n funny .... oh yah made a new friend call mj haha ... we 2 were abit grumbling about some1's att towards us .... abit dun feel like working ... but i dun wish to lose contact with him ... duno when i must take his no. ....
sometimes my life juz seem such a failure for me ... i'm scared to serve food all these ...oops gonna be late still haven bathe ... today shortshort entry bah ... bye ...

Work = no life

2004-12-18T13:01:00.000-08:00

hmmm changed my blogskin today.... quite free today ... However, some stupid idiot called my house phone at 9+ ... zz intended to sleep till 11 ... today my ah ma 1ast 100 days... i didn't want to visit... cuz very tired ... as u can see .. today OFF ! hehez .. got time to change to blog ... OFF U GO stupid popups .. u sux...

hmmm these few days keep working function .. dunno why ... like this no chance tok to Vincent le ... ARGHHH wanted to take his no. whhaha ... hes so cute ... but a bit old.. SOOO CUTEEEE ... last nite i managed to say hello wave and byebye to him haahah ... didn't expect to work later than him ... i saw him leaving .... how i wished he live in north east also .... but he lives so far .... haix ... no1 to go home with me ... hmmm u all know something ? i'm working with XE ling whahhaha we got talk sia ... i thot we wun tok ...

zzz my 3rd auntie juz gave a toyhead pillow and another softtoy... i wonder i so kiddie meh ... those things i stop fancing so many years ago AND u KNOW WAD. the softtoy for putting hp .. and WHEN U CALL THERE IS A MOO MOO SOUND asking u to PICK UP.. WTF SO CUTE LOLS ... my korkor playing with it now ... then they notice got sound hahaha ... my korkor wanted so he can give his gf ....but i refused hehez though i know i wun be using ..... my korkor got a perfume ... i rather wan his .. zz new year going malaysia again ... some farking french village ... dunno can go anot ... mabbe working ... oh yah got $10 tips from some customer ... whahah so happy ... easy money sia ...

later going to buy pants again ... 3 seems not enuff ...
[LOOKING FORWARD TO TOK TO HIM]

hmmmm....

2004-12-13T06:38:00.000-08:00

hmmm was blogspot still laggging ? wonders why my bloggie got popups again .. thot i removed it .. it was super irratiting .. i think ple not so stupid to click ok also hor ... tml going interview with yenlynn for a restaurant.. very scared wor ... dunno hard a bit but pay seems to be high ...

hope can get a nokia7270 buy new adidas shoes.. my converse shoe the design so old le .. feel like pungsai-ing today farted quite a no. of times hehez... whenever i'm scared i will stomachache.. so i think tonite better go pungsai 1st juz incase tml scared...

if only i was thinner many things would be different.. but nvm i'm working hard at it.. but it doesn't seems to succeed ... very san xing ... see like no difference ... somemore these few days face alot pimples ... somemore my facial wash finish le and can't find ... the shops say that 1 no order coming in ... haix ... i want to buy alot alot clothes if i really can slim down ...

my dad asked where i went .. i didn't want to tell him and i told him is none of his business ... wad a dad i have .. he doesn't contribute to the family .. but keep borrowing money from my mum and others ... ple r scared of him ... perhaps my unbalanced family is causing me to feel worst about myself ... i sleeps with my mum and always depend on her .. now on my friends ... i didn't know wad to do with myself .... i feel lost when i am alone ... i'm so afraid of wad ple will say me .... i always felt that they r laughing at me ...

nothing.

2004-12-06T07:01:00.000-08:00

rainy day.. washed my shoes last nite.. not sure it will be dry anot .. spend some time looking at friendster chiobu ... admire them ..... need to jianfei.. yesterday went macritchie jogging le. dunno how to spell ... tml mabbe go swimming bah .. since no activities for me tml .. quite bored these few days though its like keep going out... today was a terrible day ... raining ... some1 beside me is getting chioer n chioer le .. if i dun work hard.. i gonna feel more zhibei !
plz let me get in tp ( hopsitality n tourism ) .. today ate mac breakfast wanted to buy jackjack cushion but its out of stock already ... cold weathers... sickness going to be ok soon le... keep drinking chestnut water ...
saw tis ger call peipei in irc.. thot she very chio but actually not hahahah .. sometimes a bit bushuang those chiobus.. think they chio very big ... =( i know i not chio ... 1 long-lost friend found me ... friends like 2 years ago in bravo sv...

EveRytHiNg MeAnS nOth|nG ....

2004-12-01T22:01:00.000-08:00

woke up pretty early today... needed to help my uncle book court for badminton... coughing badly now..... lazy to see the doctor ... actually is nv see doctor myself b4 ... everytime i sick my mama will take leave pei me de .... but now she very busy ... so i dun dare see leh ... like very scary .... got alot flam stuck in my throat ... abit xinku ....
zz sad 1 court taken by others le... we no court play le... haix... mingming put 9.30 log in .. but i 9.26 log in.. already 2 court taken by others... a simple thing also cannot do properly ... haix
later going out to take job application.. sian no clothes wear .. as usual it would be tshirt n skirt ... too fat can't wear others nice nice de clothes... wish to get rid 20kg of mine ...
well today got 2 pimples.. one at nose very very pain.. cuz i think i last few days keep sneezing then the place very dirty ... and i use needle pock it lor... cuz its like very hard the skin ... pock out le not so pain anymore ...
recently rarely talk in irc... dunno wan to quit irc anot... find it a bit meaningless ... but i dun wanna lose the online friends also ... haix... not in a good mood these few days .... feel like adding some green or blue streaks to my hair ... mabbe to add some colour to my life .... sometimes black is all tat i see ..... everytime i wear black tshirt .... oh ya bought a new black tshirt from newworldorder.... i like it very much ... very cute .... its got some punk characters on it .....
oh remembered what i want to say le ... last nite de singapore idol ... very sad sia ... although i expect taufik to win already ... but i'm very sure that sylvester will be much more popular ...

OOPS forgot i still in my entry .. gtg soon ... going to bathe n get out of my house ... wearing the new shirt ... abit dun bear to wear .. juz now look at ple friendster ... realize not a lot chiobus hahaha

- LiVinG iN InSeCuReNeSs -

2004-12-01T07:01:00.000-08:00

i duno wad i am lacking of .. perhaps i'm living in insecureness .. i dunno wad will happen tml .. i duno if my friends will leave me ... i'm afraid of everything ... crying over every small things ... which i could not stop myself.. haix ... sometimes feel i am quite useless ... go out look for job dun even dare to ask if got vacancy only dare to say thanku .... i should go be begger suan le .. ple give money i say thanku ...... i really very scared to work ... i dun dare tok to ple ...mabbe tml i go taking form to do motorola .... 7days aweek... so scary ... i didn't really wanna work .. but no choice i need $$$ ... i wan buy nokia 7270 and creative nomad .... which my mama wun allow me to buy de ... i'm afraid when every1 start working .. they will have no time for me ... to go out n fun le ... and i dun1 to work alone ... i'm afraid of eating lunch alone ... i duno why ....
i need to thanks yenlynn ... she's always there for me ... making sure i wun be left out ... and anne too ... she's a nice and cute ger .... even if no1 reads my diary... i'm not worried ... i feel much more better saying out wat i want to say ... which i dun usually say ... i oftenly hide in my heart ... the emptiness... used to depend too much on my mama ... and now get homesick easily .... quite useless... sometimes a bit hate myself .... so inconfident .... i even get nightmares of ple laughing at me ... esp the sec5 agape ple ... whenever i see them i so hope to hide from them ...
now i must be determined to do something ... i must jianfei .. for my future and my own health ... but recently sick .. sort of spoiled my mood and feel that i cannot do it ... i know exactly ... saying and doing is so much different ....
my diaryland de i dun1 it le lar .. last time got some stupid virus make the diary screw up .. dun even know how to save it ... then i decided to get a blogspot.. looks much more easier to edit things ....

FUCK THE INDIANS

2004-01-01T02:10:00.000-08:00

OK HERE I AM AT HOME. FUCK THE INDIANS. why do the north east line stop at little india? and let the indians to come to orchard? wtf all spraying ... and u know wad. 1 of the indian poke his finger into my cb there. tmd de lar. i wun ever go orchard on new year eve again. PLZ GO SENTOSA. INDIANS WUN PAY TO GET THERE. the ah bengs there were also cursing the ah nehs. THE AH NEHS KEEP SPRAYING. INTO MY FACE, HAIR.

after yen went.. i was alone with vincent then i quickly pungseh him and go find my uncle... vincent ... he really look like baowei ... juz tat vincent abit more yandao .. cuteness stays... the way their hair ... the way they make their hair .. the way they smile ... the way their face and teeth ... too alike ... make me miss baowei ... i wonder how he is doing.. he promised to meet me after o lvls... but it has being 1mth plus and we didnot contact... sad... goodnite gotto sleep ... two plus le my mama kping.... HAPPY NEW YEAR